Anxiety

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***** William ******

He couldnt be thinking straight. I dont know why but it started to feel like this was a routine for Jairus. One minute, he couldnt get his hands off of me the next he doesnt want to talk to me. This was ending here! I've had enough of Jairus's shit and I needed to talk to him face to face.

"Ayeee Dad!" I called out from inside of my room.

"Yeahh, nigglet!" He jokingly called back.

"Can I see the car? I need to make a errand real quick." I explained.

"Make an errand? Nigga, its going on 10:30 at night."

"Look! You gonna let me use the car or not?" I whined.

All this yelling from room to room was starting to make a nigga throat hurt. My dad was clearly on joke time but I wasnt here for it.

"Man... Take the car! But you better not wreck my shit."
"The keys are on the shelf by the front door." He added.

With that I slipped my shoes on and made my way to the car. Now that me and my dad was back on good terms, he hadn't been tripping as much as he usually did. There was no more bad blood and tension. My ole man was just stressed. Which I could understand! Cause messing around with Jairus, Robert, and everyone else... I swear my anxiety levels were high! On a scale from one to ten, I was a good eleven. My focus couldnt stay on one thing for more than a second. Stress had my mind spinning and never at a stand still. But right now all that shit was out the window, I had one focus and that was to talk to Jairus face to face.

After a while of driving, I took a peek at the digital clock that read back to me..... 11:00 p.m.  It was getting late but it didnt matter. I knew Jairus would be up so I wasnt worried. Jairus always went to sleep seconds before the sun came up and still had the energy to wake up in the morning.

The car stopped as I parked it and whipped out my phone. The home screen appeared after I unlocked it and dialed Jairus' number one more time.

"You've reached Jairus. Sorry, I couldnt answer the phone... Just leave me a message. You know what to do!" His voicemail stated sounding like a ghost from someone's past.

Thats it. I hung up the phone and slid it in my pocket.

My car alarm beeped telling me that I had locked the doors to the car, rang loudly throughout the quiet neighborhood. It was only two little beeps but it sounded like so much more. Ignoring the sound, I walked up towards Jairus house and went onto his porch. Being a few steps away, I had a change of heart and decided not to knock. Not that I didnt want to talk to Jairus anymore but I couldnt just show up and knock on someone's door. Him mom wasn't really a fan of me so I didnt want to hear her mouth. So I decided to walk around to the side of the house where I knew Jairus room window was.

"Jairus!" I whispered but it was a loud whisper.

I watched as a dark shadowy figure walked past the window frame and ignoring my calling out.

"JAIRUS"
"I know your in there and I know you hear me!" I added on.

Seeing his shadow watch me fueled my anger but after watching him, watch me, I decided to just give up and get over him. I began walking back to my car but I was interrupted by the sound of Jairus big ass windows opening.

"Will!" His voice called out to me.

For a split second, I didnt want to talk to him. I didnt even wanna see him. It was like I was feeling every emotion all at once. But I drove all the way out Clinton and I was not about to waste my gas and not get answers. I slowly turned around to see his head hanging out of the window.