What If//h.s

With A Little Help From My Friends

Harry is avoiding me. Key is avoiding Niall. And I feel like I'm falling to pieces. I've already exhausted the conversation about Harry and I to Liam and I don't want to bother him with my stupid drama. I can't talk to Key about it because she keeps complaining to me about Niall. Of course I listen and give advice but I don't want to put my troubles on top of hers. She's going through enough.

I also haven't really talked to Niall since Key and him fought. It's nothing against him really but I haven't left Key alone except to go to class or when she's in class. I've texted him and called him but he always asks about Key and we can barely get into a conversation that won't make him upset. I would talk to Louis but I'm pretty sure Harry is talking his ear off with complaints about me.

"Hey, are you okay?" Key asks as she digs her spoon into another carton of ice cream.

"Huh? Yeah I'm fine."

"You seem distracted." She said, mouthful of ice cream. "Harry on your mind?" I shake my head and she laughs. "Yeah right. I know you two had a fight."

"How?" I asked, confused.

"Because you've been sulking for like three days and he hasn't been over to bug us." I shrugged.

"It was dumb. He didn't understand what I was trying to say."

"What were you trying to say?" I sighed and quickly explained about what happened the night Key and Niall had a fight. "Oh yeah.. I totally forgot to ask I'm sorry."

"It's fine, they're fine. They've been at the hotel since Tuesday." Cecilia was also avoiding her relationship troubles like I was.

"So go on, you and Harry." Key prompted.

"I was telling him how I didn't want Winston to end up with an abusive father. I didn't want him to become reckless with his life or grow up thinking that all of this was his fault and Harry took it as.."

"You don't want your brother growing up the way he did." I nodded my head sadly.

"I blamed myself you know. I thought that maybe.. If I had been a better daughter he wouldn't have wanted to hurt us. But then I grew up and knew that it wasn't my fault but his. Something inside of him. I don't know how to explain to Harry where it won't sound like.. I don't like who he is as a person."

"Well.. That's a tough one." I laughed, despite everything.

"I don't really know what to tell you.." She paused. "Have you talked to Liam?"

"Of course." I said with a roll of my eyes.

"My ex-boyfriend?" She asked. I shook my head no. Key had been refusing to use his name since their fight. "He's not the best candidate for relationship advice." Key muttered. "And I suppose Harry has control of Louis." I laughed. "So have you tried Zayn?" I stopped laughing. I hadn't really talked to Zayn in a while. Sometimes I felt like it was.. Awkward. Like I didn't know what to say to him.

"Maybe you should talk to him." Key suggested.

"I don't know..."

"Is it still awkward between you two?" She asked. I shrugged.

"I don't know. I guess. We haven't talked much.. In a while." Key shook her head at me.