akaashi keiji x reader 【discontinued】

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I ACTUALLY FINISHED THIS holy

requested by my-fantasies xoxo i'm sorry it took so long i cry

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"Anemoia? What is that?"

"It means nostalgia for a time you've never known... eh."

"Forget it, I will never understand the meaning."

"Well said. You didn't even try to understand it, that's why." Akaashi sighed as he closed the book he was reading.

"Mmm. I like it though, there's nemo in it."

"Is that all you can grasp from that word?" you just laughed it off as you skipped to your classroom.

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Today was colder than yesterday, you noted.

You've already left your house early in the morning despite the chilly air of morning. You reminiscing the worried look on your mother's face. You smiled cheerfully at her, chirping that it's okay.

(But you are not okay. Nothing's okay.)

You keep walking as you shivered from the cold weather, looking up at the gray sky with a blank look in your face. Yesterday was not a pleasant day for you. You got to skipped school because you have an appointment with your doctor but unlike the usual check ups, your day didn't ended well even though your mother bought (favorite food) after the check up. The result of your check up wasn't the best; it was the worst, if you may say.

Well, getting told by your doctor saying that you are going to lose your memories in a few months wasn't a pleasant thing indeed.

You can't remember the details because you were busy on trying not to break in front of your mother. The only thing you can remember is that you suffered a rare case of amnesia or something like that. You will slowly forgetting all the memories you had created and someday you will forget it all at once.

As simple as it sounds, it's not. It's terrifying and you are scared. Maybe it's nice to forget all the bad things in your life, but by forgetting all of your memories then it means all of it. The bad ones and the good ones.

You tried to rub the sleepiness off your face. You feel really sleepy and felt like you can pass out anywhere if you didn't do something. You stopped in front of vending machine to buy coffee to get rid of your lack of sleep. You opened the can and gulped it down slowly, almost gagging at the taste-you don't really like coffee, but you keep drinking it anyway. The coffee didn't really help but you feel a bit better after you drank it. You look at the sky as you continue your walk.

You put up all nighter yesterday because of that stupid amnesia thing. Despite how terrified you are, you kept wondering what will happen when it happens.

If you are going to forget everything, that means you will forget Akaashi too, right?

The thought of it made you can't get to sleep. Forgetting people that you have met was sad and all, but Akaashi was a special case. You two already dating for almost 3 years and already friends for God know how long. You will be okay because you won't remember him nor you will understand the pain when it happens, but how about Akaashi himself?

As you walking, you felt someone taps on your shoulder.

It will hurt him when the time comes...

"Why did you drink coffee? I thought you don't like bitter foods."

It may be sounds stupid but you just-