Let's Run Away From Reality, Darling.

Don't leave, beautiful..

I don't know how to express my feelings right now.
At this exact moment.
Or, well, ever.

I will never be able to tell you exactly how I feel about you.
Do you know why?

Because I'm scared.

I am scared that you will just leave, and I'll have nothing left to lose.

Do you want me to pour my heart out in order to share my feelings towards you?

I could start out by saying, "Damn, you're so beautiful," and then look up at you, into your gleaming eyes...

And then pause.
Not even realizing that I was supposed to be exposing my feelings.
Just stand there and stare.

Because you are so goddamn beautiful.

I don't just mean physically. You have a beautiful soul. A beautiful heart.

I could write down everything that is so freaking appealing to me about you.

But, I'll never be able to tell you.

Because I'm scared.

I am so damn scared of being alone.

But, you don't know that.
You honestly don't know how I feel.
You think I'm strong and independent.

But, you are oh so wrong.

I could be paranoid for weeks about "us" and you wouldn't even know.

'Wow, Caitlin, you're just going to hide how you feel?'

That's a good and a bad thing.

The advantage is that I have nobody asking me 24/7 if I'm okay.

The disadvantage is that I want YOU to ask me if I'm okay.

I'm so paranoid of you leaving, but I can't do anything about it..
Because I wouldn't be able to stop you.

These feelings may just stay bottled up...

So, tell me.

Even if I couldn't tell you how I felt within words, would you still stay?

Would I be good enough for you...?

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Song above: Imagination by Shawn Mendes.