Let's Run Away From Reality, Darling.

Author's Note: Smile.

Here is something I wrote almost two years ago, and I thought I'd share it with my readers. Enjoy.

"I hate you. Why do you have to make me feel this way? I am so pissed off at you. You make me feel all these things.. Why butterflies?! I'm not supposed to feel this way. You broke my heart. I don't know if it'll EVER be repaired. I cry so much, my eyes burn. I just want to claw my eyes out. Why emotions? Why do I have to care so much? I keep hurting myself over you. I just can't stay away. I am so addicted to you. But, you hurt me. Bad. So freaking bad. You are my drug. I can't get enough of you. But, you lost the feelings you had for me. How does that happen? I thought you cared. I thought you'd "always stay by my side". I thought you meant it when you said you loved me. But, no. I wasn't the girl for you. It breaks my heart when I see you. Whether you're happy or sad. It still hurts. I want to be over you already. I want to be alone. Forever. We thought we'd last forever. I didn't know forever was only three months. My heart races when I see you. Is that anger? Is that my feelings for you? You're breaking me down. My body is on fire. I am burning alive. You are killing me. You are ripping my heart to shreds. Ugh. I hate you. But, I love you."

As you can tell, I was going through a rough patch. Obviously, it was about a guy who didn't want to be in a relationship with me anymore.

You have to remember that no one ever intentionally breaks your heart. You end up doing that to yourself by overthinking, crying, not sleeping, etc. You let these good people break your heart and then blame them for it when it's you whom is breaking yourself down.

I had figured out that no one wanted to be around me when this happened. Yes, I lost trust in others for a little while, but it all started when I lost faith in myself.

My point is this:
No matter what, you're going to have to pick yourself up after any kind of problem that you're dealing with. You just have to start with believing in yourself.

Also, don't forget to smile.😊