Never Ending

chapter fifteen

I woke to the sound of the phone ringing, the landing light went on and my mum answered it it went silent and knew straight away what it is.
Is was Lucas my mum and dad came in the room and the look on there face told me what is was I broke down cryed cryed and cryed my mum wrapped her arms around me. I have gone through pain all my life. But I have never felt like this I didn't no what this pain was it felt like it was never going to leave me I couldnt stop crying why didn't I stay with him he might have been ok if I was there with him, was he in peace or pain, I was thinking so much. I coudnt clear my head I didn't no what to do I just cryed more.

The next day was the same I went round to see is mum and dad soon as I seen them I cryed so much and they cryed too we cuddled spoke but coudnt stop crying. That night I was preparing my furnal clothes for the next day we at to be at the church at 9 o'clock in the morning.

I was getting ready the next morning I was wearing a simply black dress with a little black cardigan. I remerber when I was 13 and I got rushed in to the hospital after I had my operation the nurse asked me if I could rate my pain 0 being no pain to 10 being the worse, I had to think and I turned an looked at the nurse I said 9 because I was saving the 10 for now. This was the worse thing ever the feeling I had was horrible everying minute I was crying I coudnt seem to stop and think about something else it was surrounding me every thing reminds me of him. I couldn't believe he was gone.