Never Ending

chapter sixteen

We sat in the church while the priest was talking I couldn't even concontrate on anything just kept looking at the coffin knowing that my boyfriend was laid in there dead I still couldn't get my head around it. Why could God give me so much bad luck I loved him why couldn't he just let me have him or let me die to.
I looked around there was so many people there I looked towards his mum and dad is mum was crying so much everyone could hear her but who could blame her his dad had his arm wrapped around her. Suddenly I heared the priest say now its time for Lucas girlfriend to say a few words.
I stood up looked down at my mum she gave me a resuring smile and tears formed in my eyes. I don't think I can control my self I walked to the top and stood next to Lucas coffin put my hand on the top. Took out the paper to read before I started I looked at his mum and dad they was both staring at me I looked at the coffin and wiped away the tears that was Suddenly falling down my cheeks.
Before I started I put the pieace of paper back in my pocket and whispered sorry to Lucas I thought it wasn't fair to say all that in front off all these people.

There isn't really much to say me and Lucas only known each other for a short while but he was the love of my life. And I'm sure I was the love off his. We had are little infanity even tho it was only for a short time. Me and Lucas met at support group from the second I saw him I knew he was the one Lucas once told me that people in life have there one person who is there rock there soul mate best friend and more he said that is wait was over that he found that person in me. He was my everything. Tears started forming in my eyes again suddenly my cheeks was soaking wet with tears and I coudnt stop crying. My mum came rushing up to me and put her arms around me to walk me back to my seat. But I stopped her and said wait I haven't finished yet. So I started again, Lucas was my everything he was what people only dreamed of and I didn't think I would see a world with out him.
I slowly made my way back to my seat my mum and dad came up to me and said do you want to go home I said I'm going to drive back myself I'll see you later at home. Just need to be on my own for a little bit. As I started walking to my car someone walked up to me it was Lucas friend he looked like he wanted to speak opened his month but nothing came out. So I walked away I just wasn't in the mood I turned to look at Lucas coffin one last time then got in the car and slowly drove off.

I drove and drove in till I didn't have the strength anymore. So I started driving home walked through the door and went straight to my room.