Michael Clifford sickfics

Together Forever

Request by amberjazmyn

Warnings!!!
- funeral
- suicide (briefly shown!!)
- self harm
- depression
- violence
- alcohol

I made this so much sadder than it should have been oml

So I'm trying a new writing style for this, you like it or should I go back to how it was?

Anyways.......
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Amber was Luke's little sister and Michael's girlfriend of 3 years, she always had on a smile and was always cheerful.

Or that's what it seemed like.

Amber was really falling apart inside, she had depression and had been self harming for awhile now, close to going over the edge. Michael had no idea of this and when he got home that evening, he didn't expect to see what he did in the living room. Amber, flat on the ground, a gun next to her side and blood on the wall from a gunshot. "Fuck!" Michael screeched as he rushed over to her, picking her limp body up and he broke into tears, clutching her tightly.

"Wh-who did this to you? WHO?!" Michael sobbed, not able to control himself as he thought someone had broken in and killed his baby girl.

~
Suicide

That's what killed her.

After learning that Amber had done this on purpose made Michael's heart dissolve into dust. He loved her, he cared about her, he adored her. He just needed her again.

Today was the day of her funeral, Michael was going to give a speech and he was waiting for someone to tell him to go up there, his hands shaking as he glanced at the open case every other second.

He could still see the scars on her pale wrists even from the distance he was at and that made his stomach whirl

"Michael had requested to make a few words about his loving girlfriend, so if he'd like to come up now Amber would greatly appreciate I'm sure." Luke cooed into the microphone, although he was obviously broken because it was his fucking sister laying in the casket before him.

The blue haired boy slowly walked up to the microphone and hugged Luke tightly before the blonde sat down, Michael clearing his throat before he spoke.

"Amber was the perfect girl I could have ever asked for. She was beautiful, smart, freaking hilarious, and just overall perfect. I didn't wanna change a single thing, but now I wish I could go back in time and make her happier. I had no clue that she felt the way she did, dear god did I wish I knew, but sadly she was good at keeping her secrets. I thought she was murdered the night I found her, the memory just makes me sick to my stomach.......I was out the night she did it, I was out r-ring sh-shopping. I was gonna propose to her the following night, b-but I was too late. I remember her telling me that she had always wanted an emerald ring because it was her favorite gem. It took me a year to find one but I did and well......I, uh want her to wear it before I'm too late once again."

Michael walked over to the case and slid an emerald ring on her cold finger

"Just like you always wanted baby"

~
Its been a week and Michael was tore apart.

He hasn't been able to smile like he used to and his laughs are rarely heard. He has dozens of cuts on his arms and thighs, covering them up with bracelets and long sleeves. He is seen with a beer or strong alcoholic beverages in his hand, it helping his pain fade away when he was too drunk to remember.

But he was fucked up beyond repair and everyone knew at this point.

It was 2 am on Sunday and Michael was on the floor of his living room, surrounded by broken glass and miscellaneous things he had just tossed around in his rage.

Fucking hell did he miss her

The blue haired boy looked down at his hand and bit his lip at the blood and broken glass covering it.

He pulled out his phone and called his friends and family one by one, each one going to voice mail and his heart broke after each one.

He then went to his voice messages and made one recording his last speech.

"Hey whoever finds this, um, I just cat take this anymore. I need to be with her again and I'm too far gone to be okay again. I love everyone, Luke, Calum, Ashton, Mum, Dad, every single one of you. I-I just need to be with Amber. I'm sorry that you had to see me go voluntarily, but, I hope to see you one day. Don't forget me too quickly, love you all. Stay strong for me since I couldn't. Bye."

Michael sent it to every single person in his contacts and then set his phone on the table, going into his desk and putting a piece of paper with a song he had written for Amber next to his phone, grabbing the gun from the desk drawer and he gulped hard whilst putting it to his hesd and cocking it.

"I'm coming Amber"

~

"Mikey? Why are you here? It's too soon for you"

"I couldn't be without you Amber, I couldn't"

"I'm sorry Michael"

"Don't be, let's just be happy together now that I'm finally with you again"

"I love you kitten"

"I'm love you too baby"