Shinigami eyes (Death note)

Note

Hello Readers!

If you're reading this, you probably thought I was dead. Well, I'm not. 

But I do have a few things to say to a lot of you. I've noticed a LOT of you getting frustrated, and even kind of mean, in the comments on my last chapter. Let me be clear; my life does not revolve around this story. 

In fact, let me just explain to you why I've been gone. 

It started a couple years ago when I was diagnosed with Depression and Anxiety. That's why It might've taken me long to get through chapters or to post. In case you don't know what Depression and anxiety are, let me give you guys some definitions. 

Anxiety: a nervous disorder characterized by a state of excessive uneasiness and apprehension, typically with compulsive behavior or panic attacks.

Depression:a mental condition characterized by feelings of severe despondency and dejection, typically also with feelings of inadequacy and guilt, often accompanied by lack of energy and disturbance of appetite and sleep.

So, let me put it this way. If I wasn't fucking scared out of my mind that something terrible might happen or that people always didn't like me, then I was depressed, and consequently, a little suicidal and mostly didn't even have the will to leave my bed.

Now move forward to about five months ago. I was hospitalized in the beginning of November in a psychiatric ward for youths because I was suicidal, depressed, anxious, and though I didn't know it yet, I had severe OCD. I was there for a week, left for a few days, and then ended up back in there for another week. 

Then, I was put in Day treatment for six weeks. 

Let me be absolutely clear. My life has been a living hell these past few months, and I'm just barely starting to get better. I'm working on getting my GED, I'm working part-time, I'm actually eating food. My life has revolved around treatment and finding ways how to not want to kill myself. 

I love you guys. I love you for reading my stories, for sticking by me, for commenting and voting and following. It makes me happy to know people enjoy my stories, which is why I would NEVER abandon this story. 

That doesn't mean it won't take me time to finish it, and you can either accept that or stop reading it. 

Please don't assume that I'm not writing because I've given up on this story or that I don't give a shit. I do, and I want to finish this story. Please don't ever assume that someone's not writing for any particular reason. 

May I remind you that behind that computer screen is a person with an actual life and actual problems. They do not need you swearing at them or nagging them. I'm probably not the only author who you've cursed or yelled at or been upset with because they didn't update. Again, our lives do not revolve around satisfying you. I don't make money telling this story, I tell it because I love it. And you swearing and yelling at me makes me love it less and less. Don't make me hate telling this story because I have people who can't understand my life doesn't revolve around it. 

Thanks for your understanding!