My Digital Escape - living with MDE

Tears //Chapter 9

A/N
I met MyChemicalTurtless and my brother (Thomas) a few days ago it was gr666. I miss them a lot smh.
*triggering*

*Saturday morning*
I sit down and the table still half asleep as pancakes are placed in front of me. I look up to see Dakota smiling at me
"Morning! How'd you sleep."
"Amazing thanks,"
Adrian climbs onto the chair next to mine still half asleep.
"Do you want pancakes?" Dakota asks.
Adrian is suddenly completely awake .
"Yes, please" he yells.
*timeskip brought to you by lidls obsession with the song favourite things from the sound of music smh its annoying*
I walk into Johnnie and Bryans apartment to see everyone still staying here (Bryan, Johnnie, Alex, Jordan and Robbie) looking at me in a sad/concerned way.
"What happened? What did I miss?" I ask all of a sudden not feel so happy.
"Chloe I think you should take a seat." Bryan says tapping the seat next to him.
I sit down next to him and curl up into the large pillow placed in the middle of the couch. What could be so bad that they need me to sit down with them? Usually they are running a round with a camera but everything feels so empty and different.
"So late last night your, umm, mum , uhh, past away." Bryan says somewhat whispering.
Everything stops the laughter from out side fades and Alex stops fidgeting. It's over now. I'll have to move back in with my dad. I'll never see Dakota or MDE again. I stand up and walk towards the front door.
"Chloe, Where are you going?" Bryan stands up and starts to follow me but I turn and lock myself into the bathroom. I open every draw until I see it. The small box with flowers and fairies with spots of red that had not been there before. And headphones. Tears continue to flow down my faces Bryan starts banging on the door. I take the blade out of the box and wash it. I watch as the drops of water shining underneath the light bulb. I take out my phone and text Dakota.
'I love you but all I ever do is mess up. You deserve better.'
I place my phone on the ground and sit in the bath tub. Bryan is trying to break down the door and I can here Jordan and Robbie trying to help. Alex sounds like she's crying and Johnnies the phone. I reach for my phone and headphones as Bryan stops. He's given up. He finally understands that the worlds a better place without me and I should be with my mum. Pierce the veils a match into water comes on as I pick up the blade again. I draw a deep line on my wrist as my phone vibrates and the door is broken down and Jordan runs in. I turn over. He can't see me like this. My phones ringing but I still have headphones in and everything's too loud. I wish I'd just hurry up and die.
Everything's spin and I feel tired. Jordan lifts me out of the bath and carries me outside to an ambulance which is who Johnnie probably was calling. I stare at Jordan as he runs down the stairs. He had been crying. It was my fault as well. Everything is my fault. I fuck everything up.
"I'm sorry,"I whisper as he looks down at me and he starts to cry.
"It's not your fault," he says as everything goes black.

A/N
WOwzar. Umm idk. Oops. I um dramatic.