When We We're Young

When We We're Young 1109

"I'm trying not to pretend that it wont happen again and again like that... I never thought it would end but you got up in my head in my head like that... You made me happy baby love is crazy so amazing but its changing rearranging, I don't think I can take anymore.. Cause the worlds burned up and our love fell down.. And it turned into whatever now were saying never.. Feel the fire cause its all around and its burning for forever and always.. We gotta let it go be on our way look for another day cause it aint the same my baby.. Watch our  love fall into the ground.. No happy ever after just disaster..."

I could still remember those days when theres disaster in my life but I had someone with me. Trevor was there. And every disaster didn't feel like it. Now, here I am on my next destination at Denmark, the letter still hasn't come but I'm gonna wait. Even if I have to go through lots of disasters.

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We both we're bored and if people know us, they know what we do when were bored. Things that we shoudn't. But for awhile, that time it was fun.

Me and Trevor decided it was  good idea to go dancing around the rain. We splashed dirty water at each other. Fell into the wet ground and some kids even joined in the fun.

And I hope those kids were fine cause were totally not. I'm shivering right now with a high fever and I feel like I'm a statue who can't stop sneezing and Trevor looked exactly the same like me. Yes, we both got colds. My mom even said 'Tsk, stupid minds always think a like'. Yeah, and we didn't even deny it.

Anyways, as you could imagine, I'm still in my spongebob pajamas and a pink sweater that had Dora's face in it (What?! I'm a kid, get over it!) and long colorful socks on my feet, a Kool Fever on my forehead (for adults ofcourse) a soup in my hand and the television remote on the other.

As expected Trevor is hear leaning on my wooden bed the same thing as me, only he looks more presentable than me. "Alright. What movie next?" I ask. He groans and thinks "Gods of Egypt please" he said. Oh yes! Brenton Thwaites is sure to make me feel better.

"You two lazy asses! You know I'm starting to think your not sick because of the rain. Get up and walk around the neighbor hood! Get some fresh air!" my mom blabbers. Snaping her fingers and purposely makes her voice louder. Goddamnit!

Trevor groans from beside me but stands up anyways. "Your moms right April. Come on, you need to take a bath" he said as he pulls me up. I snicker, please, its not like he's taken a bath, well actually he still managed to smell great. Life is so unfair. I strip of my clothes, yes infront of him, he's seen me in my underwear before when first, my mom showed him my baby pictures and second when he suddenly opened the door and it was too late to cover up anyway and besides, he's no pervert.

"Lacey? Seriously? You can give any guy a boner" he said as he slaps my ass. A friendly pervert he is. I chuckle as I got in the tub. With him across me. His legs intangled with mine. I know, we act like such a couple but we're not. Just very close friends. We both wash our bodies individually ofcourse "Nothing like a good song for a great day" he said as he plays a music from his phone. Curse, rich children with water proof phones, well actually that was my phone.

"This is us at our best and our worste. When we speak its like were stuck in reverse!" we bolt out the song of Jojo; Say Love. We both finish and I change in the bathroom while he changes outside with the clothes mom got him from his house, I know my mother is such a good host.

I grab his hand as we slowly went downstairs. Its actually very chilly and the cool air somehow calmed my head ache. Yeah, I haven't been outside for a day atleast. Trevor beside me takes a deep breath. "Ha! I'm better now" he dramatically says as he puffs out his chest. "You know, I know something we can do. Or watch. Many aiplanes pass by at these times. Its sort of not fine but people don't mind much" he keeps talking about his plan until we reach the cargos.

He stops infront of a red huge cargo and looks over me. "You first or me?" he asks. "me ofcourse" i said as I held on to the stairs. "Yes ofcourse you, so you can fart in my face" he snickers. I laugh. "Cause I know you can catch me right?" I tease. But its half true. "Always" and add the sneaky wink after that.

We both sat down as we look at the horizon. The horizon was dark now, the stars and the moon we're the only lights you could see. He wraps his arm around my shoulder and it feels like we're not sick anymore.

I woudn't deny it. Everything feels better with him around. And nothing will ever go wrong when he's here. His like strong arms that keeps my pieces in place so that I won't break. His everything good in the world and I don't care if that sounds cliché.

Suddenly, roars erupted the sky and airplanes flew as if they were shooting stars in the sky. They gave light in my vision, like Trevor does. "See? Pretty right?" he said. His breath hot against the side of my face. I look at his face and our lips brush together. Everything was suddenly perfect.

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I suddenly remember my feelings for him. That I did love him. A friend. More than a friend. That day I gave him my kiss and he returned it. We dated, went out but never was official. Now I'm confused but I still do love him. I'm cruel and selfish that I actually left him. I made wrong decisions. I made my own life a disaster. And I'm hoping... I'm begging that he's still gonna be there to fix it. To fix me. Like he always does.

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Lesson learned, sometimes you cant blame anyone but yourself with you failures and thats what hurts the most. But you just have to take it in and learn from it.