When We We're Young

When We We're Young 1148

The arena was actually pretty cool. And I guess in a way Emily's wish came true, it was an open arena near the beach and since the concert was on night time, the lights gleam and shine bright. There we're 10.000 people who paid to get in the beach since it was closed and the concert was also broadcasting on tv, if I we're to choose, I'd rather stay and watch the concert on the television but I woudn't recommend it. How am I supposed to get paid with that?

Ok so I don't care about that much, to be honest I just like the feeling of performing infront of people and just having fun with my life. Emily runs the red lip stick on my lips and I smile up at her.

"You know, we can sneak out when Astrid is asleep in the morning, she usually wake up at 11 whenever the flight is on the afternoon. And besides she can't be possibly mad for us having fun for once in awhile" I cheer her up. She grins at the thought and leave, probably to tell the others.

"Alright, what look are we going for tonight April?" Vince, My gay friend asks showing me my rack of clothes that I could choose from. I think about it for awhile. I mean, I always go for the conservative thing but come on! Its breezy.

"How about my yellow skirt and my white vest? And pair of wedges, your color choice" I said. Vince nodded at the idea and I changed.

"Heres the thing, we started as friends.. It was cool but it was all pretend..." I smile to myself as I remember the lazy sunday I spent with Trevor, the first time I ever performed infront of a crowd.

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"I'm bored" Trevor whines as he rolls over my bed again and threw me another pillow, since I was decorating my room. "Yeah, and I'm entertainment" I mutter sarcastically. He rolls his eyes and throws me another pillow.

"Will you stop that?" I snap. 5 pillows we're now on the floor. Yeah, I like pillows. "Not until we do something" he said throwing another pillow. "Why don't you help me decorate?" I ask showing him the christmas lights. He rolls into his stomach and whines and says 'Ewww, thats girl stuff' which came out muffled.

I already put up my posters, yeah I know Typical but I like posters, so when I wake up I can see the face of my stars. Which are Alex Pettyfer, Brenton Thwaites, and Chace Crawford. I already put up my lacer floral curtains, on my window are the pink ones and on my bed were the purple ones.

I already add some stuff like my lamp, my personal stuff, books and all. I already made everything spotless and now, the christmas lights are attached to my bed, and no its not christmas, I just don't like the dark that much when I'm not outside with Trevor. I mean sure, Trevor's allowed to have a sleep over on my floor but it doesn't make anything better.

"How about we go out?" he asks wiggling his eyebrows at me. I on the other hand suddenly blush at his words. Going out? Yeah its not my thing. "D-d-date?" I slutter. Ugh! I look like a tomato right now! A humiliated sluttering tomato! He shakes his head as he laughs. And I silently plead that he's not gonna make fun of me.

"As much as I'd like that I'm not in the mood. No like I mean make some kind of vlog" he said. How does he know that? Oh yeah cause he's not stupid and thats all we do in Sundays, watch youtubers and their interesting lives, cause ours is too boring for that. "No thanks. I hate speaking in public, you of all people know that" Yeah, that slipped out when we got to 'know' each other, though I did most of the speaking and he did most of the asking.

"You have a great voice and your accent is not bad! You should embrace your talent! Get over your stage fright bitch! What happened to the snarky sarcastic girl I know?" he said. Is he trying to mimic a snarky sarcastic girl? No, its not working in favor for him. I once sang infront of the stage (I told him this story too) and I only forgot the lyrics and ended up crying infront of everyone. "And besides that was like 5 years ago! Five years!" he exclaims.

I fake sob and put my hand in my heart "Well Five years wasn't enough! It wasn't!" I exclaim dramatically. He suddenly winks at me "That was five years without me. Now that I'm here, your ego is bigger than before" he said. That sounded wrong in so many levels but he's right. He makes the 'me' get out of my shell.

And now here we are, in the middle of that statue thing, with some stranger people around just waiting expectantly for me to start singing. "I d-do-don't know about this... Trevor... People.. Are.. Somehow expecting.. And they... Don't even... Know.. Me" I slutter. People are actually smiling and taking out cameras. Oh my gosh.

"Remember what your mom told you? The people here are friendly" he said, as if that would make me better. I never did anything impulsive to make them hate me. And maybe they'll hate my voice and throw tomatoes at me, but the coast is clear. No tomatoes around but also, they could throw rocks too. "Too friendly if you ask me"

I  look around again and take a deep breath. "Look, just imagine everyone's naked" he said. And I do as he says. I chuckle when I see to fat people walk by, wait.. Gross! I look at him again and he gave me a thumbs up. He's actually drumming for me, said he learned it from his dad. I can just kill him when I get thrown at. Yeah.

"Let me tell you bout your boyfriend.. He's a dead end Ha!.. And if I gotta tell you why.. Its only gonna make you cry.. Can we talk about you boyfriend? For a minute, he's got a secret and he's telling you lies, oh what a lovely.. I just thought you should know what he is capable of.. Let me tell you bout boyfriend, he's got another girlfriend! Baby I just gotta let you know, you really gotta let him go.." The crowd bangs their head to the beat. Hmmm, they actually know The Vamps. And my fear of performing is totally gone.

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Lesson learned, when you believe in yourself you can conquer anything. It is said that believing in yourself is an aspect in living your life the way you want it to.