When We We're Young

When We We're Young 1100

"Everybody loves the things you do..From the way you talk...To the way you move  Everybody here is watching you...Cause you feel like home...You're like a dream come true...But if by chance you're here alone..Can I have a moment..Before I go?
Cause I've been by myself all night long..Hoping you're someone..I used to know
You look like a movie
You sound like a song
My God, this reminds me...Of when we were young
Let me photograph you in this light..In case it is the last time...That we might be exactly like we were
Before we realized...We were sad of getting old...It made us restless...It was just like a movie..It was just like a song"

My last concert. I begged them to stop. I read the email again and again like I was only imagining the words. I kept reading again and again that I didn't want to stop, I almost missed the schedule of this concert.

Yeah, I can still remember the last time that I called him in my phone, that was the time before I won the competition. When I told him that if I do win its all for him and that he should never forget that.

"Get the limo ready please" I say to Astrid as soon as I got down the stage. She was skeptical to give me a month of but then agreed to it that I will work non stop with my albums and soon make my own songs after that month. Just one month to be with Trevor and its enough.

I change into my jeans and yellow V-neck shirt then hurridly got into the limo. I had made up my mind. I do love him as he loves me. He's right, from the start we were never friends, we were something more.

If I know him he's not a liar, he doesn't say anything that he doesn't mean and he's not selfsih. He's everything you can really ever ask for. And I already have the answer to his question I always did. I remember that moment when he played with me with his boys tactics.

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"Hey, You know this girl? Caroline?" he asks casually as we lay in my bed with me on his stomach and his hands fiddle with my hair.

"Yeah.." I trail off unsure of what he is gonna tell me. Lets just hope he didn't get her pregnant. And not that I'm feeling jealous (in a way I am) but because his mom is totally gonna have a heart attack and say 'im too young to be a grandma' Yeah, she cant really deny she loves kids, just not this early.

"Well, I was gonna go to a date with her today and I wanted to check my kissing skills again, its been long" he said. I was shocked he would actually tell me this. My heart broke, just because I woudn't kiss him the other day because he spilled his coffee on my favorite shirt doesn't mean he can go out in dates.

Sure, were not really official and a part of me will always want that but I know I'm too young for this too. I sigh and nod. I kiss him and he kiss me back and when I was about to pull away he bites my lower lip and damn his good at kissing. He should put that on his resume.

I open my mouth and his tounge explores the inside of it. I like the taste of him. He's been eating Nerds, I can actually taste that. His hand goes behind my neck and the other pulls on my waste pushing his body closer to mine and his heat rushes inside of me.

His hand travels in the inside of my stomach and stops just above my bra. Then he pulls away "So? How was that?" he asks. "Ok" I said but even he could tell that was a lie. It was better than ok. He chuckles lightly and taps my nose.

"Finally! I got to kiss you! Damn you were stubborn yesterday and no, I'm not going on a date with Caroline" he said. I smile. Cheeky little bastard. But though, I'd like the sound of 'my' cheeky little bastard.

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I closed my eyes as the jet plane leaves the ground. Astrid has given me my phone back and I am gonna call him. I dialled his familiar number. It rang for awhile until he picked up. Don't die yet, I silently pray.

"Hello?" his voice was raspy and weak, it broke my heart to hear him exhausted. All my life I'd gotten used to his velvet and chirpy voice, now it was gone but I was hoping to get it back again.

"Hmmm, you never do check the ID caller now do you?" I joke but my voice broke. I was so happy after I read that letter, it was like a button for my hole. A soul for my hollow body. A beat for my heart.

"April. I'm betting you've read my letter?" his playful voice was there and I can imagine him smiling at me. I guess this was an unknown number since this phone is purposely made for planes.

"I have and its amazing. And I love you too just so you know. Just please hold on for me alright? I managed to win for you" I said. He laughs at the other line but coughs. "You know how much I wish I didn't win" And that was true. I now regret my decision, I now am guilty for being so selfish. "Don't say that. You deserved it and you still do" he said.

"But do you deserve this Trevor? I coud've stayed. I could have took care of you" I said. "Yeah you could have but that woudn't do anything April. We'll both be devastated" he said. He always did make a point, he always had a point.

"You know what Trevor? Just rest alright. Just don't leave without me. Hold on" I plead. I would kneal in rocks if I had to just for him to hold on. He sighs in the other line "Anything for you April. Anything" And he made that pretty clear.

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Lesson learned, Not everything goes your way but most of the time you just have to go with the flow. Cause in life its either full throttle or nothing. Its either try or give up and we all know which is the right choice.