My Certified Crush

Introduction

"..tumagal siguro kami ng mga 8 or 9 months??"

"Bakit patanong?? Di ka pa ata sure." Natatawang tanong ko sa kanya.

"Di ko na kasi maalala eh."

"How old are you when you meet her??"

"15 or 16??! I dunno. I really don't know. Coz it's been a year to remember that things!" Irritated na sabi niya.

"Eh di ba, they say.. first love never dies??"

He suddenly lift up my chin and I met his gaze, "Yeah. First love never dies. Pero ayoko nang alalahanin pa yung lahat. Coz your here now. Your my present. And I want you to be my future." He suddenly close the gap between on us. He gave me a peck.

It's already 8:26pm. But we're still here, lying on the ground of this park. Syempre may mantel. Hobby na namin ito, to watch the stars, but not always. We did this once or twice a week.

Pagkagaling namin sa work, deretso kami agad dito. To take some rest and get some fresh air.

He wrapped his arm around mind, very tight. He leaned my head on his broad chest. I hugged him too. I feel so warm with this. With his grip, I feel so protected.

Tug dug. Tug dug.

I just close my eyes to hear his heart beat.

Tug dug. Tug dug. Tug dug.

I love this kind of sounds. The sounds of the heart beat of the one I love.

"Hon??"

I gasp, "Yeah??"

"It's your turn."

"It's my turn??" I furrowed my eyebrows.

"It's your turn to tell about your first love."

"Ah, that thing??"

"Yeah. Come on. I promise that I won't get hurt or jealous after I hear that."

Hinampas ko sya ng mahina sa chest niya. He chuckle.

My first love?? I suddenly remember, all the things.
Should I consider it that is my first love?? Siguro, kasi, di ko magawang kalimutan lahat ng mga memories na meron ako sa kanya.

But, this is one sided love. Ako lang nagmamahal sa kanya, sobra. Yung ako lang ang nasasaktan.

We'll actually, it's just a simple crush. That grows deeper.

Naalala ko nga sabi ng classmate ko, ''Crush is a gate of love." Pati ikaw magugulat sa sarili mo, na mahal mo na sya.

It was a High School Days.

Di ko alam bakit ganun kalakas ang epekto niya saken. As in iba, ibang-iba.

Nagawa akong saktan ng mga kaibigan ko ng dahil sa kanya. Nagawa ko rin saktan ang ibang tao ng dahil sa kanya. Kasi sabi ko, ayokong gumawa ng isang bagay na alam kong pagsisihan ko. I mean, some boys was asking for my heart. Pero, anong gagawin ko?? Ayoko naman lokohin sila, lalo na ang sarili ko kung wala naman talaga akong nararamdaman sa kanila. Kasi alam ko naman na sa huli, kami rin ang masasaktan.

All this time, sya lang. Yung tipong walang iba. Kundi sya lang. Sya lang ang gusto ko.

Yung kahit na sabihin ko na, 'Ayoko na!' Pero andun pa rin yung feelings na bumabalik.

I waited him for a long a time ago. Pero kahit kailan, di ko pinagsisihan yon. Kahit na alam kong walang patutunguhan ang paghihintay ko.

Kahit na alam kong sa paghihintay ko, masasaktan at makakasakit lang ako ng ibang tao.
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Author's Note:

So how was it?? (ಥ_ಥ)
Sorry, kung may natagpuan man kayong kamalian. ('Д')y
Pero, okay lang ba itong part na 'to?? (ﾉД')
Hey, leave a comment ah. And votes na rin po. 〒▽〒

Salamat talaga. ヽ('▽｀)/

- Nabi