After sitting in the hospital for another hour and 1/2 still trying to put broken pieces together and crying I had a headache I was looking at my mother and I was amused at how I was a split image of her but I was ready to go everything was becoming to be a bit overwhelming. "Brit baby you ready to go" Brandon said comforting. "yes I'm ready" I said. As we walked to the car I just couldn't stop thinking I've never been so depressed in my life I'm so use to having it all together and being able to fight my tears but this just hit a soft spot I just felt like I didn't know what to do with my life anymore I had nothing to live for, then it made me think that's how Brandon felt when he lost his mother I see why now It feels like something special has been taking from you and there's nothing in this world that could replace it we got into the car and it was just complete silence no radio no nothing It was midnight so there was no cars really on the highway. "Brit baby I know you don't wanna talk and might not want to listen but I just wanna tell how much I love you and I know you couldn't be strong enough to fight your tears and that's okay as well just think about like this she's in a better place now okay baby?" he said holding my hand while driving with the other. I just nodded to let him know I understood what he said but now I have more things to think about her funeral. My mother never really have not that I know about she was adopted so all she knew was her parents that adopted her I guess I have to do a small funeral, all this shit is just too much on my plate but I gotta get my brother's opinion on what to do it's his mother too I'll just call him tomorrow I'm sure he's feeling like me not in the mood to be bothered. 35 mins later we finally arrived at an apartment I didn't ask any question of if we was gonna be living here or was this temporarily it didn't matter to me at this moment I just wanted to get in the shower and sleep the night away Brandon grab our duffle bags from out the backseat of the car and then open the house with a key I was guessing by that this was his backup house. I grab my soap and my bra and panties from out the duffle bag and headed for the bathroom I didn't wanna take a shower tonight I wanted to bathe myself slowly I started the hot water pour soap in the tub to make some bubbles and let it fill up to the top I took my clothes and I was beginning to get in the shower I could hear Brand walking in on me."You mind if I get in with you baby?" he asked already naked. I nodded my head no to let him know I wanted him to get in tub with me. "c'mon brit" he said sitting in the tub first. I don't know if it was Brandon's presents or was it the hot water but my body caught a nice sensation I laid back on Brandon's chess and relaxed my body."Everything's gonna be okay Brit"he caressing his hands through my hair. I just couldn't say anything because I wasn't sure of that I felt like was changing at this instant moment felt like my mother being gone had already changed me and I felt like O had to think different for awhile I had to change my mindset to like killing thoughts, every time I thought of my mother I thought of killing my father. "Brit baby can you talk please just say something" he said pleading with that adorable face of his. I sighed "Brandon I want my father dead stone cold dead" I said looking at the ceiling. "I know babe, let's not think about that tonight let's take a nice shower together and call it a night" he said caressing his on the lining of my outer thigh. I nodded okay but,Brandon seemed not to interested In killing my father anymore but his father was apart of it from what I'm assuming but then what if his father had nothing to do it but that don't make sense I'm done thinking for the night but all I know is someone has to be dead soon and my father is my first target.