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The kiss started to escalate and Logan was soon on top of me, shirtless. Our breathing was heavy but steady and in the moment everything felt okay again. I loved being in his arms feeling him he was my everything. We didn't go all the way but we definitely messed around. Literally thirty seconds after Logan and I dressed again my dad barges through the door.
"You don't just walk away from me like that, Alexia!" he shouted.
"I'm sorry." I sit up from Logan's arms, "I just didn't want to talk about it anymore."
"Who do you think you are?" my dad asked.
I rolled my eyes, "What do you mean?"
"Well I'm your father which means you're supposed to respect me because you're my daughter! I just want to know what's wrong!" he yelled.
I looked up at Logan then back to my dad, "Nothing is wrong. End of story. The blood came from my knee when I tripped."
My dad ran his hands through his hair in frustration, "Logan, do you know anything."
Logan looked at me he looked like a deer in headlights, "No, Charles I don't know anything. I'm sorry."
My dad left the room and Logan looked at me he was so angry, "I had to lie to your dad, Lex. That's bad!"
"I'm sorry, Logan." I said.
He grunted and stood up, "I'm going for a walk." and went outside.
I sat there, alone yet again. I looked at my wrist it was so delicate with so many cuts sliced across. The dry blood and scars were too overwhelming for me to handle. I started to cry and as much as I wanted too and felt the need to cut again I couldn't let myself do it because of all the trouble I've been causing. Just then I heard my parents fighting out the widow.
"I can't talk to her anymore." my dad was so frustrated.
My mom rubbed her temples, "What happened, Char?"
"She kept saying, 'it was nothing','end of story','I don't want to talking about it' that was a lot of blood Alli I want to know what's a wrong with our daughter!" my dad began to pace.
My mom shrugged her shoulders and crossed her arms, "I don't know what's wrong with her."
My dad looked to the ground then back to my mom, "Should we send her home?"
My mom sighed, "I mean I don't want too. She's been so excited for this and with Logan she would be devastated."
"Well what are we supposed to do?' my dad asked.
"At this point I really don't know, Char."
My dad just stared into the distance for a few minutes and looked back at the window I was watching out of and immediately ducked, when I risked looking again my dad said to my mom, "What if we just went home for a week. I could use a break, you could use a break, and right now I really think Lexi needs a break."
"If you want too Charles." my mom shrugged.
My dad thought about it again for a minute before saying, "I'll go talk to Travis."
As much as I didn't want to go home for a week I thought it might be good. Maybe I just need to recharge and come back and everything will be okay again. God, what's happening to me? My parents didn't ask for this from me. I'm being nothing but a burden to them and I feel so guilty but for some reason I can't seem to stop myself from disappointing them, time and time again. I put in my headphone and the song that came up was, "When a Heartbreaks" by Ben Rector and all I could say is it was perfect for what I was feeling right at that moment. A few hours later and I still haven't seen or heard from Logan but then again I wasn't necesssarily looking. Does that make me a bad person? My parents however did want to have a chat with me so we sat a local diner for dinner.
"Lex, I'm sorry for whatever is going on right now but I'm not going to stand for it any longer." my dad started.
"Honey, we just want you to know were here for you, always." my mom chimed.
My parents looked at each other then my dad continued, "Were going home. Tomorrow."
I pout, "Dad, I really don't want to go! Please!"
"It's only for a week. I think we all just need a break." my dad stopped.
I looked down at my fingers twisted in my lap, "Yes, sir."
We finish dinner and I went back to the bus to start packing my things when Logan came up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist.
"Hey, you." he whispered in my ear.
I continued to pack, "I thought you were mad at me?"
He sighed and let go of me before sitting on my bed next to my pile of clothes, "I was but..." he stopped, "Why are you packing?"
"I'm leaving." I said simply. I just wanted to have some fun with him.
"What? Why?!" he yelled.
I laugh, "Calm down. I'll be back in a week. My parents just think I need a break."
"Do you agree?" he looked at me nervously.
"I'm not sure." I said folding my last shirt in my duffel bag and throwing it on the ground so I could sit next to Logan.
He wrapped his arms around me and we started to kiss. We shut the curtain and just when things were started to get heated he stopped, "What is this?" he asked pointed at the scissors in the pocket of my bunk.
"Logan that's been there, I just haven't taken them out." I explain.
"Lex, I don't even like to think that you cut your own skin with that." he laid down running his hands through his hair.
"Look Logan," I paused, "I'm sorry that I've disappointed you I hope to never do it again but the past is the past and as much as I would like too I can't freaking change it!"
He grabbed me again tighter than before and started to kiss me again we unlatched our lips and he put his forehead against mine and said, "I love you." and things escalated from there. I know I shouldn't be having sex but to be blunt about it I am and I'm doing with someone I really love so I don't care anymore what my parents or Travis has to say abou it. The next morning I wake up bright and early and my parents and I get in a cab that drops us off at the airport. I'm going to miss that bus for a week but I am kind of happy to go.
