Just a few things, one if you're consistently reading this story I'm going to try really hard to keep a Wednesday Sunday schedule, two I just wrote about a four page sixth chapter on my phone and when I tried to publish it I lost it ALL. I'm obviously annoyed but I'm gong to try to rewrite it by memory. Thanks for the positive comments and votes -beautifulgoodbyexx (:
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I quickly hid my hand behind my back when someone opened the door. My body imediately relaxed as I watch Garrett jump in suprise on the other side of the doorway.
"Sorry Garrett I didn't think anyone was on the bus." I said nervously.
He smiled, "No worries Lex, I was clothed." he joked before leaving the bus.
Garrett was a really easy going kid. He's always smiling or making a joke and really fun to be around. Althought he's closer to my age than anyone else we never really got close, he was better friends with Jax than anyone else. I went into the bathroom and locked the door behind me. I unwrapped the bloody t shirt to find the blood has definitely slowed but it hasn't stopped. I rummage through the drawers. Under an old crusty bottle of toothpaste I found disinfectant spray and an ace bandage. I wipe down my arm one last time with my t shirt and then spray the spary so I don't miss a spot. I found a couple regular band aids to put on the more severe cuts before wrapping on the ace bandage. The ace bandage was old and raggedy but it was nearly the exact sam color as my skin and it serves its purpose so I really didn't care. After finishing getting my wrist taken care of I went to my bunk and stuffed the blood t shirt into the pillow case and got dressed wearing a t shirt, jean shorts, and every bracelet I could find - trying to hide the bandage. I climbed off the bus just as Logan was climbing on in the most "smooth" way possible and stuck a piece of paper in my back pocket before winking at me. I saw a shady spot along side the bus and sat down at it. I pulled the crumpled up piece of paper out of my pocket it read,
"Skip the concet tonight. I have something important to tell you. Meet me in the back room.
I smiled before putting the piece of paper back into my pocket. I was in such a day dream I nearly hit my mom when she sat down next to me I was scared.
"Woah! Calm down it's just me." she laughed.
I took a deep breathe, "Sorry mom you just scared me."
"I noticed."
"What's up?" I asked.
"How have you been, Lex?" she seemed concerned.
"Mom I'm fine." I said in an annoyed tone.
"Lex," she paused, "why are you getting defensive with me?"
My mom was acting so concerned, "Mom? What's wrong?"
"I just want to know you're okay."
"I am."
"You're eating?"
I rolled my eyes, "Yes."
"That's enough Lexi." why is she so angry with me?
"Mom, clam down. I don't want you or dad getting stressed out over me right now." I nuzzled my head on her shoulder.
She kissed my head, "I'm just worried."
"I promise there's no need to worry." I crossed my fingers behind my back.
Just then I see the bus doors open me expecting it to be Logan was in complete shock as I watch Jax run across the parking lot to his dad. He hugged him and cried. At first Travis seemed furious but he lightened up. I think everyone could tell how desperate Jax was for that hug, no one knew why except for me and Logan but you could still just sense it. After a few minutes I got up and kissed my dad on the top of the head. There was a nearby Starbucks so I went on the bus, grabbed my laptop, and headed over. I bought myself a Vanilla Bean Frappachino and surfed the web with the free wifi. I go on Facebook, listen to music, and do some online shopping. I realize its nearly six o'clock. I gather my things and walk back to the bus I meet my dad there he was in a hurry the concert started in less than an hour.
"Dad, wait!" I call.
He stops looking frantic, "Yeah? What is it Lexi?"
I pause and look down at the ground, "Would you be at all upset if I missed the concert tonight?"
"No." he turned around to leave but then stopped, "Why?"
"I just didn't get much sleep last night. I wanted to go to bed early."
"That's fine." he hurries toward me and kisses the top of my head.
"Good luck. I love you daddy!"
"Love you too baby girl." he said before getting off the bus and running across the parking lot to the venue.
Once everything settled down and I knew the concert started I went to the back room. Logan was already there waiting for me. His smile was so perfect and sparkling. I crawled on the couch next ohim and laid on his chest. We were both quiet I was about to speak but he interupted me.
"Lex?" he said hesitantly.
Why did he sound so scared, "Yeah?"
"Take off the bandage."
My heart sunk and I couldn't think of anything to say.
"Everything from before has to be healed by now." he said.
"Logan... I.." I felt like a deer in headlights.
He took a deep breath, "Lexi, please."
I slowly take every bracelet off and unravel the ace badage. He look at my wrist and I watch tears prickle at his eyes.
"Why Lex?"
"Logan please, please don't be mad."
He breathed in hard trying to keep himself from letting any tears fall, "Just tell me why!"
"It helped me so much the first time and I guess I kind of liked it in a way and I just haven't stopped."
"Lex." he burried his head in his hands.
I start to cry, "Logan.. I'm sorry."
He pulls me in tight, "Don't be sorry. You're obviously going through something hard. I can't take the pain away Lex but I can love you through whatever it is that is hurting you so much and no matter what I will not stop loving you."
