Logan's P.O.V
I woke up and got out of my bunk. I walked to the front room of the bus and interrupt my dad and Jax having a serious conversation.
"Hey guys." I said as a pulled a glass from the cupboard and poured myself some orange juice.
"Hey, Logan." my dads voice was calm and worrying, "We need to talk."
I immediately look to Jax in fury assuming he told on me and Lexi having sex, "What's up?" I sit cautiously beside my dad.
He rests his hand on my knee and I couldn't help but think this was bad, "Logan remember when you went to the doctors about a month back?"
"Yeah." my heart stops, what's wrong with me.
"The lump in your back. It's more than just a lump." my dad pauses and put runs his fingers through his hair.
"Dad. What's. Wrong. With. Me." I try to emphasize each word to get his attention.
"There's a benign tumor but before you worry it can be fixed and everything will be okay." my dad tries to assure me.
"Than why are you so worried?" still not convinced.
He took a deep breath, "It needs to be surgically removed and it's close to the spinal cord."
"So what dos that mean?" I ask.
He takes another deep breath and long pause, "IF something were to go wrong you could lose all mobility."
I stop in my tracks, "You mean... be paralyzed?"
My dad sees the fear in my eyes, "The odds of it happening are slim but the reality is the chances are there."
I shake my head and try to process everything, "I'm going to go lay down."
"Logan, wait." my dad sighed.
"No, dad. I'm fine I promise." I went to my bed.
I'm a very emotionally strong person but this just got to me, I started to cry. The thought that I might lose all mobility scares the crap out of me. I wouldn't be able to play hockey anymore or do the simplest things as to walk to my friends house. I lay there for a quite awhile before my phone starts to ring, it's Lexi. She was so happy to come back on tour and I didn't want to ruin her excitement so I tried to sound as happy as I could but I really wanted to tell her. Soon after Lexi and I disconnected my dad checked on me, only briefly. He just wanted to make sure I was okay considering I haven't left my bunk all day. I felt my phone vibrate and as much as I wanted to ignore it when I saw "Mom" written across the screen I had to answer it and face the music sooner or later.
"Hey, mom." my voice sound sad and depressed.
"Hey, baby." her voice was more sweet and calm.
I ran my fingers threw my hair, "What's up?"
"Just seeing if your dad talked to you." she said simply.
"Yupp." I said popping the "p."
"You're surgery is next Thursday. It's your dad's day off so you, him, and Jax are going to fly in Wednesday after the concert." she said.
I sighed, "Kay."
"After the surgery I don't think you should go back on tour with your dad. Stay home and get some rest." she said, I could tell in her voice she was waiting for me to freak.
"Mom, I'll stay for a few days until things are feeling better but I don't want too for long." I explain calmly.
"Honey, but what if..." she trails off not wanting to say anything that would make me more upset.
"What if, what? What if things go wrong and I can never walk again?" I try to keep my tears in check.
She sighed, "Honey it's just a possibility that should be discussed."
"Mom, I don't want to discuss the bad unless it happens." I state simply.
"Okay, honey. I'll let you go. I hope you know I love you." my mom said.
"I love you too, mom. Bye."
I disconnected. I got out of my bunk and went to the back room. I took off my shirt and looked in the mirror at the small lump on my lower back. Again I start to cry but my dad walks in on my moment and hugs me tight. He kisses the top of my head repeatedly, he sounded like he wanted to cry but he didn't. If the doctors said this isn't such a big deal why does it feel like it? my dad sat down on the couch as I continued to stare at the mirror at the lump.
"Are you going to be okay?" my dad asked.
I sighed and grabbed my shirt off the couch, "I guess we will know Thursday." I said pulling the shirt over my head.
"Bud, everything is going to work out." he said.
"I know it will." I said smiling softly.
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Two chapter in one day, what?! I just really wanted to get Logan's point of view in there and I know many of you are probably disappointed that I didn't talk about the pregnancy at all but don't worry it'll be here wednesday. I just want to say I am a freshman in college and the whole time management thing is really hard for me to figure out so please be understanding if I'm a day or two late. I am trying my best. ANYWAY, I love all the plot twists and everything that's going on, it's exciting for me. I hope you're enjoying it and please let me know! (: -beautifulgoodbyexx
