drug [ pjm ]

twenty-one.

Due to a misunderstanding a few days ago, the whole tutoring-by-Jimin was no longer going. He said it himself, "there's a drama club for a reason". You honestly want to smack him, but you know you can't. For now, that's not your problem. You've been thinking a lot about this Somin girl.

Was she real or did Jimin just make her up? For what reason, exactly? To play with you around? That idea makes you infuriated. If he was indeed trolling, you would not think twice to kick the living day lights out of him.

Jimin has been crossing your line for so many times. Despite having a huge crush on him, he's starting to get on your nerves. Not only does he make fun of your best friend, but he's somewhat doing it to you, too. You have to stand up for yourself somehow.

That's why today, you called him to meet you after school. Luckily, the English club meeting was postponed. So is his club meeting.

Jimin arrives at the venue in a few minutes. The fact of you randomly asking him to talk with you was nerve-wracking in his part. Little did he know, you were nervous as well.

"You wanted to talk?" Jimin speaks first, trying to stay calm even though his pupils are shaking.

You swallow and nodded at his question. "Yeah. Jimin," He just stares, gesturing for you to continue. "can you tell me the truth?"

"What do you mean?" Jimin plays dumb, looking at you innocently. 

"Tell me what you're up to." you say rather desperately.

"I still don't get what you mean, [Name]." he replies, walking forward a little bit which makes you back off as a reaction. "What do you want to know?" 

"I want you to tell me everything. Everything you know right from the beginning." you answer seriously.

"What's there to know? [Name], you're there for me because I need your help. I need you to get my ex back-"

"Is she even real?" you cut him off, your eyes asking for the truth. Your question makes Jimin pause and swallow a lump that has formed in his throat. His palms begin to sweat from the same high-strung feeling. "Is... is Somin even a person?" 

Jimin couldn't answer right away. His eyes land on the ground for a second, before he faces you again. He gathers up all his confidence to speak up, to speak everything. "No, Somin is not a real person. I just made her up." he finally confesses face to face.

Your eyes widen in trepidation and you walk backwards even more. "So... so you've been lying all this time? You lied that you had an ex?.." you whisper faintly. Jimin just nods in shame, feeling guilt at the pit of his stomach. "B-But why?"

"You won't understand, [Name]." Jimin says, running a hand across his dyed hair in frustration. "It's way too complicated for anyone to understand but me."

"I don't care. You used me, Park Jimin. You used me for you child's play." you say as faintly. "And I can't believe I played along like some idiot."

"It's.. it's not like that."

"Then what on earth is it?!" you're yelling by now, bursting all your anger out. You didn't actually mind acting like his girl friend, but when you figured out he was just doing it for fun and not because of the whole operation-get-his-ex-back, you're damn angry. Jimin flinches from your sudden change of tone. He seemed scared for a guy. "Why did you pretend you had an ex? Why did you choose me to fool around with out of the hundreds of girls in our school?" you attack him with questions.

"I wish it would be easy to explain." Jimin responds, but with much control in his voice. "But it's not."

"What's so hard about telling the truth?!"

"It's difficult, okay?!"

"Either you tell me right now or I'll pretend you never existed in my life." you challenge him. "I'm done being submissive. Make a choice, Park Jimin."

Jimin grunts in furiousness. "Why are you so obsessed in knowing, any ways??"

"Because I'm sick of having to pretend to something I'm not." you answer directly. "I don't want another day of you having to tell me to do this and that because of some person who doesn't even exist. Are you doing this because you're too much of a coward to ask me out, huh? Tell me, Jimin." you say softly, heaving gentle breaths.

Jimin sighs. Fine. It's now or never. "All right."

"All right what?"

"If I tell you this, please don't look at me differently. I would die otherwise."

You stare at him intently. "I don't care. Fucking spill it."

Jimin sighs for the second time, before his mouth opens up, "You're my ex, [Name]."

How you wish you could delete those four words from your mind.

***
so... the secret's finally out. you're welcome.
This story has been ranked #840 on the romance category, also! 감사함니다!! ㅠㅠ ♡ You guys are truly infiring.