drug [ pjm ]

twenty-seven.

You pull away from Jimin's hug and you quickly wipe your now-dry tears with your arm. Jimin hands you a hanky all of a sudden and you reluctantly take it. He smiles softly and lets you take your time. Once you're done, he immediately speaks, "You can have it."

You didn't know how to respond to that, so you just nodded and hid the item inside your pocket. "I still can't believe it." you speak unsteadily.

"I'm not rushing you to." Jimin states, bringing up his hand again to caress your soft face. "I just wanted you to know the truth. I've kept this for so long now. I can understand what you're going through."

"Are you... were you really my boyfriend?" you ask abruptly.

"I was, [Name]."

You're still in a daze from everything. You can't believe you were in an actual relationship with Park Jimin. That was something that really shocked you. So you had amnesia, that's bad enough. But for you to forget someone special? That's heart-breaking.

"Jungkook..." you utter. That name truly affects you. You don't know how to feel about him anymore. Should you be mad? Sad? You can't think properly. Everything is going too fast for you to comprehend.

"[Name]." Jimin brings you back to reality. He looks into your eyes deeply and it's as if he's looking right through your soul.

"Jimin?" you mutter confusingly. His name on your tongue feels right.

"I missed you so much." he states and he looks ike he's about to cry as well. You've never seen him like this before. You always knew he was tough and playful, but you never knew he had this side of him. "You have no idea how much I waited for this moment to happen, and now it's finally happening. I'm so happy."

You couldn't smile, so your lips remained in a firm line. Even with everything being tod to you, you still can't get over the shock. "You know I can't say I miss you, too right?..."

"Y-Yes." Jimin replies, nodding his head. "I understand. You can't immediately pick things up, so.. just take your time... I want you to think over..."

"I will." you say nonchalantly. He sighs in aloof and tried to show you the best smile he could give. The way his eye smiles as well makes you wanna grin yourself. But your heart still feels kinda heavy.

"Will you talk with Jungkook?" he suddenly asks, as if reading your mind.

"I will."

"If you do... promise me one thing."

You look at him questionably.

"Don't let him lie to you."

Jimin told you his farewell and left just like that. You didn't quite get what he meant by that.

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You're currently on your bed while looking at the ceiling blankly. Your face is blank, your mind is blank.

Why couldn't you remember anything from the past? Isn't there something's that supposed to help you remember? Besides, you remembered Jungkook, but why not Jimin? You've never been confused in your life before until today.

Did Jungkook give you more memorable moments than Jimin ever did? Maybe. Eversince Jimin left, you were miserable. Jungkook was the only one who lit your dying candle. Maybe that's the reason why you couldn't remember your boy friend. You treasured your best friend more.

No one's to be blamed though. It was just life's fault in general. It brings you up's and down's for no reason. That's just how it plays.

Heaving out a sigh, you grabbed your phone and opened it to the logs. You actually received 5 miscalls from none other than Jungkook.

Jungkook.

Seeing or hearing that name makes you... conflicted.

You debate whether or not you should call back. There's still a grudge in your heart aftef all. He was selfish for his own desires. But you don't want to think anymore. You just wanna lie in bed all day and sleep. To avoid everything. To avoid problems. To avoid life.

With that, you close your phone again and placed it back on the drawer. You then curl yourself under your blankets and tucked yourself in.

Meanwhile, Jimin is also in his room, contemplating about life. He's somehow glad you know everything now. For once, he can finally approach you withour fear. He can show his affection again genuinely. Not for some child's play.

But as your boy friend.

Even though you two are frankly over, he will do anything to start things over. He wants you back again. No matter how long it would take, he would still do it.

Anything for the love of his life.

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listening to love is not over atm.