4: The Playboy's Victim

Chapter twenty one: the word Goth didn't fit her. She was so much more.

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(Please don't be confused especially on the back and forts.)

Chris POV

Siguro kung alam na nila yung totoo, they'll hate me. Cursed me or even wished me to vanish. I didn't played on them. The truth is I make them.

Bakit?

I just don't want them to be like me. They're my friends, they deserve better. someone who can loved them no matter what. kaya kahit na pag tawanan ako ng iba wala akong paki-alam. Hindi nila ko maiintindihan.

Ayoko lang na.. Na magaya sila sakin..

Cold, alone and broken.

Kelan pako naging si kupido? Hindi ko alam. I want to laugh at my self. Can you blame me if I'm afraid to love someone again? being left aside by someone you loved with all your heart isn't easy to just forget even after so many years. I don't hate Lily, I loved her. but what she did puts hole inside my heart forever. At hanggang ngayon wala atang mag sasara pa ng butas na yon. Maybe I'll just blame my self for loving so whole-heartedly..

You only know you truly loved someone when you didn't expect her to love you back as much as you did.

I didn't.

And it still hurts and sucks.

Nag sinungaling ako. sa kanya, sa mga kaibigan ko at sa sarili ko. I- I have a twin brother. .

Bumuntong hininga siya at namulsang tinignan ang kabuuan ng Quezon City mula sa building sa kanyang kinatatayuan.

Why am I exactly having this train of thoughts inside my head?

Not until I met Lily. My first love. After knowing the truth that he likes my brother more than me I shut him out of my life and never talk to him again after that. At hanggang ngayon hindi parin kami nag kakausap kahit na alam kong parehas na kaming nasa Pilipinas.

I know my self that I am a dick sometimes.. sometimes always.. But I was just a seventeen year old teen-age-guy in love and lost in his own world when that happens. Hindi kopa naiisip na hindi niya kasalanan lahat, na hindi ko dapat siya sinise.. Anger filled my heart that very day and I did something that I know I'll regret for my whole life. .

"You just punched your own brother right in the face, his nose almost broke." I answered my own thoughts.

And.. My Mom have to flew with him back to Philippines and transfer school him because of that. Natatakot sila.. na baka lumala yung away, yung galit ko na baka masira kaming dalawa. Kaya simula non .. Lumaki na kaming hiwalay kabaliktaran noon na halos hindi kami mapag-hiwalay.. I'm his first bestfriend.. I know I shouldn't think of him snatching my girl from me but...

"You did anyway." I answer my self again.

Tumingin siya sa kanyang likod nang tawagin siya, na maaring sekrerarya nito.

I enter inside without even bothering to knock.

"What the fuck?!"

Hindi na siya nagulat nang makitang may kalampungan ang nakababatang kaibigan.

"Things haven't change after all these years eh Lew?"

Nginisihan niya ang babaeng nag mamadaling lumbas sa opisina nito. Knowing that I am aware of her sucking him down that throat. gusto niyang matawa dahil sa reaksyon nito.

"How's my brother?" sabi niya rito.

Don't even ask me how this freak becomes the head of DILG.