bully boy. // on hold

Chapter 9

9. And Now I'm Fucked Up.
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Wow. I'm gonna sing everybody! And Guess what? It's all because I'm bullied live stream! And nobody gives a damn fuck. I loved to sing. Harry and mom always said I could sing too. But this is not what I visioned in my mind about singing. GOD! I sincerely wish that right now, the ground would open up and swallow me into another dimension.

I tried to stop them, but things just got worse. I started to get threatened when I asked them to stop. I always got panic attacks when I was forced or suppressed to do something. I had no other choice. I had to sing.

I nervously go to in front of the room. Ri and Max were like ' what is she doing?'. I chose 'Demons' by Imagine Dragons because that song was literally me. The music starts.

"When the days are cold and the cards all fold and the saints you pray are all made of gold..." As I began, I closed my eyes and canceled everything around me, except for the music. As I reached for the high pitch chorus, I could feel tears of panic, pain and guilt trickle down my face.

Halfway through the song, I opened my eyes, and I found myself standing in a dark room lit with the light of phone screens. I was crying and singing at the same time.

The song was finished and I found myself caught in a giant group hug. I even saw the gang staring at me in awe, disgust and revenge. But the blue eye was staring at me
like hell. I wonder why.

Ri and Max ran towards me and pulled me into a great, tight hug. I felt SO comfortable in my friends' hands. As we pulled apart from the hug, Ri said to me " Do you even know what was happening there? It was amazing! " "Sam, I'm gonna tell you something. Don't waste your talent. Keep it growing." Max said as he hugged me.

I ran to the upstair washroom and cried all my frustration, stress and fear out. I don't know how but I felt so relieved when I cried that night.

I opened the door to find the gang sitting on Lucy's bed, as if they were waiting for me.

" You think you got away with this? Oh let me tell you 'kid', you haven't seen the bad side of us yet." They slammed the door shut leaving me in the room with Niagra falls flowing out of my eyes. I couldn't stay there anymore.

I walked past the crowd towards the door somehow and went towards Ri's car. I didn't go back in to the party.

I stood next to the car until the party was almost over and finally Max and Ri came out. I wiped all of my tears and tried not to cry, and said them that I was too tired and wanted to go back to my dorm.

I finally reached my dorm and removed all the party stuff and changed into my thigh high shorts and an oversized t-shirt. I plugged in the music to my speaker and lied on my bed, still not ready to believe that people actually liked my song. I hope tomorrow is a good day.... For everyone.
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Hey guys! This is Sara and you're reading 'bully boy'. I'm sorry if this chapter is lame. Finals are finally over. Wohoo! I'll be writing more chapters if I can. I'm so sorry that I can't reply to any messages. It's because of some stupid block. So if you guys want me to reply to any questions, comment the question in the comment box and leave your Instagram username below.. Be sure to listen to Demons by Imagine Dragons if you haven't yet. Stay tuned for more chapters coming up.

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