Why Won't She Believe?

"I'M RECKLESS FORGIVE ME!"

Chapter 4: "I'M RECKLESS, FORGIVE ME!"

                 "BABY WE WERE BORN WITH FIRE AND GOLD IN OUR EYES! EYES!" One of the most weirdest and craziest things in this whole wide world was happening. I was singing out loud with my school's principal... In her SUV... On our way to my house.

Did I ever thought this would happen? Not in my entire life.

I actually learned that she's 28 because she graduated early from highschool, with sixteen years old because she was a complete and utter nerd. The greatest in her class. She was bullied, she was an outcast, they gave her the choice to skip grades because of her intelligence and her mom accepted, she came out of university about two years ago, did her practice for a year and bam they threw her to our school and she accepted willingly. She's super nice and she was singing "If I'm James Dean, You're Audrey Hepburn" from Sleeping With Sirens, and all this amazing songs are coming out of her own iPod which is connected to the radio by the aux cable.

I saw that we were taking the right turn to enter my street and I looked at her confused, she laughed and lowered the radio's volume, "I was in your mother's senior class, she's like a big sister to me" she smiled, "I know where you live, you should've figured that out 10 minutes ago when we got lost in the music yet I kept driving the correct route" she laughed and I laughed along with her because in reality I got lost in the music, "So you knew me back at the office but still asked??" I asked curiously, "I wasn't sure if it was you or not, I don't see you since you were five baby, you've changed a lot" I laughed and looked down, not getting it the positive way, she noticed and placed her hand on my shoulder gently, "You look very grownup, your jawline is very defined now, your hair looks amazing and it's way longer" she specified and I nodded blinking the tears away and catching the ones that fell on my cheeks.

"Tell your momma I love her and that I miss her, we haven't talked in like two weeks" She moved her hands as if a bomb exploded and I laughed, "She's been very occupied with work..." I left it hanging because... I miss her too, but it's not because of work that we're more apart.

"Well tell her that I said that she needs to take a break and have a pool party at my house with all of you" I looked at her shocked, "B-but.. Really!?" I asked insecure if I should tell mom or not, "Yes Iona, now go before they go cray cray thinking that somebody kidnapped you... Be honest and tell them that I took you home, but if you can leave the Biersack case away between just the four of us... That would be very appreciated" she lectured me and I just nodded, I opened the SUV's door and looked back, "Thank you Aunt Monica" I said and she laughed, "Now you remember me?" "What?" "That's what you used to call me" she said nostalgic but then smiled and I chuckled, "I didn't even know" I said and she shook her head, "Go on, see you tomorrow" "Bye, have a nice day!" I replied as I closed the SUV's door. We both waved until she disappeared from my view and I started walking inside when I noticed there was a weird red car in front of Ashton's car.... And our parents aren't home....

I decided to go on in and check who was from, I opened the door with my keys and I saw Ashton in the living room's couch, a girl straddling his lap with her hands running on his dirty blonde hair while they make out right there, his hands were going down from her hair, down her back and finished on her short shorts, grabbing her butt and squishing it in what seemed like a very painful way but I'm sure she enjoyed it given her loud moans. I saw Luke and Calum on the staircase to the basement containing their laughter, and Calum signaled to me to go with them. I hurriedly walked towards them and we three went down and they pressed play on some radio, and Ed Sheeran was the only one heard, not Ash and his... Someone.

"You had to see your face, Iona" said Calum and I tried to laugh but ended up in a strangled weird noise. They laughed again and Calum shook his head, walking away deeper into the room, it seemed like Michael was back there. Luke went for the sofa and grabbed his guitar, started tuning it and I sat on the floor, I always loved to watch them all four playing, and sometimes when we have the time or I feel really low, Luke plays for me and we sing together, or he sings for me while I cry a river...

"Is there something you need?" He asked not even looking at me, "I wanted to talk to you but right now I'm just..." I didn't seem to find a way to describe that in fact, I'm just staring at him, "You're just staring and it's annoying" he replied and I looked down... He's being colder than Calum... Wow.

"Luke-" he stopped abruptly and stood up, placed his guitar on the other couch and punched the wall right beside it... He was scaring me...

"I bet you didn't fucking eat shit at lunch time, did you!?" He raised his voice in a scolding manner and I tried to talk but nothing came out, "I bet you weren't outside early because you were cutting yourself in the fucking bathroom, weren't you!?" I started crying and he started pulling at his hair, stressed out.

"Luke please don't talk to me like that!" I whimpered and he crouched to meet my gaze on the floor, "Don't you fucking get it, Iona?" He said softly but still in a scolding manner, "W-what?" I asked in barely a whisper "We love you, we want the best for you; We want you to be happy for goodness sake! How can't you see that!?" He raised his voice more after every phrase, "Why Iona? Why isn't our love enough for you?" I saw his eyes watered up and red, and I couldn't help it any longer, I started sobbing helplessly, "L-Luke I-I-I'm s-sorry!" He looked at me with a pain filled expression, "I wanna... I want to believe you Iona, I really do" he looked down and started wiping the tears that were now falling from his beautiful blue pupils, that looked almost clear now that his eyes were so red.

"What do I do Luke? What do I do for you to forgive me and my stupid behavior? I-I know that this is not happening only because we fought this morning... I k-know you've been trying to remain calm for more than a w-week" I looked down in shame and he pushed my chin up with his index finger, "You need to help yourself, because no matter how many more advices I give you... If you don't follow them then it's worthless-" "No it's not!" I cried, "I miss you all so much, to lose you too would be catastrophic" The tears just kept on falling on their own and he sat in his knees, held my face in his hands and wiped some tears away, "I don't understand why such a beautiful girl like you, is feeling so bad about herself when in reality, it should be the rest of those skanks from our school who should feel bad, because they're not as beautiful, much less as attractive, and much more less personality worth people. That's what frustrates me, Iona! Why can't you just open your eyes and let yourself breath too, huh!?" I started sobbing again and grabbed his hands with mines, linking our fingers and uniting our arms together, my forehead on our knuckles, "I'M RECKLESS, FORGIVE ME!" I screamed in desperation, he left my hands only to grab me by my waist and hold me tightly. He pecked my hair and drew comforting circles on my back, I kept sobbing and I felt him sob here and there too. We were holding each other as if life would end tonight, as if someone was trying to separate us and then, after a few minutes he replied softly, "Of course I forgive you honey, I'm here for you, forever and always. I love you and want to see you fighting my princess, even when sometimes we fight and go cray cray, I will always be here supporting you unconditionally" I cried in his shirt and he combed my hair with his fingers.

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Before I could fall asleep, Luke put on a movie and I laid my head on his lap,  he started playing with my hair as we watched the movie... I actually think I didn't even reach the second scene when I was already asleep in his arms.

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A/N:

Iona babe❤️ Beautiful readers❤️ Stay strong and keep on fighting ❤️

-AngelaMissRecklessRenegade