Learning to like the popular boy

Happiness is all im after

"What happened to your dad?"

I was caught off guard, speechless...

"Uh um well uh ah see-"

"You don't have to tell me." Zach grabbed my hand and played with my fingers.

"I want to" i looked at him

"My dad was in the military, and something happened...he had gotten bone cancer, and had to get his leg cutoff. He got better and it healed. We thought everything was okay..three months later he got lung cancer. My dad and I were so close, like really close. He was fun, kind, caring, the best. His cancer got worse and worse. He died. Its been 5 years. I dont talk about it with anyone. My family only talks about him on his birthday, we buy a gift and bake a cake...i miss him so much." I whispered the last part. I closed my eyes hot tears slipped from my eyes.

I felt arms pull me close. Zachs buff warm arms. I buried my face in his chest and cried. His shirt was soaked and i felt so bad. I eventually stopped. Zach rubbed my back and kissed my temple soothingly. I pulled away and wiped my eyes.

"Im sorry that your shirts all wet" i laughed sniffling

Zach took off his shirt. My mouth dropped!

His abs were perfect, well kept. He was tan and smooth.

I looked away.

He took a shirt out of his drawer and put it on. I sat cross legged and watched him.

He sat next to me and fiddled with his fingers anxiously.

"Are you hiding something?" I looked at him curiously.

"No why?" He practically talked over me.

I laughed and pushed him playfully.

"What im not" he snapped a little to rudely for my liking.

I got off the bed and left the room, slamming the door behind me.

I ran down the stairs and started walking to the park.

"Blair!" Zach yelled

"Blair!"

"Blair wait up!"

He finally caught up to me and grabbed my arm, stopping me.

I made no contact with his dazzling eyes.

"Please look at me." Zach mumbled

I looked up at him.

"Why can't you tell me anything?! I tell everything to you! Everything!!!" I yelled yanking my arm out of his grip and backing away.

Zach sighed

"Listen there are some things i can't tell you" he tried explaining

"What is it that you can't tell me Zach?" I held back the tears.

"Blair please just-"

"I fucking told you everything and you can't tell me one thing? Zach you know what dont talk to me anymore." I closed my eyes and walked to my house

"Should of stayed away" i told myself

"Blair please!" Zach yelled.

I walked in my house and locked the door.

I fed Lola and ran upstairs. I put on some sweats and threw my hair in a bun. I washed my face of tears. I looked remotely okay.

I walked downstairs and made my way to the kitchen. I put a pot of water on the stove and let it boil. I wrapped a blanket around me and poured the hot water into a blue mug. I put a blueberry tea bag in the cup. I walked to the living room. I sat in the couch and watched Gossip Girl. Lola came up and laid on my lap. I petted her soft head. I put my cup down and closed my eyes. How could he keep things from me? I told him everything!