Learning to like the popular boy

And the world was gone

Zachs POV

"My friend from my travel lacrosse team, is having this big part at a club, wanna come with me, you know get out the house." i asked Blair as she made Mac n cheese.

"I dont know" i couldn't see her expression because her back was facing me.

"Come on, your gonna make me go all alone" i pouted

She turned her head to me and smirked

"Fine" she giggled

"Yes!" i cheered

She sat down and handed me a plate.

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"Okay im gonna go change and ill be back." I told Blair

"No! grab cloths and come back here" she whined

"OKay" i ran out her house and went into mine.

Madeline was dusting and looked over and smiled at me. i sent her a small smile and ran upstairs. i scanned my closet and looked for some cloths. Madeline walked in

"Do you have any dirty cloths?" She asked

"Yeah on my bed" i grabbed some jeans and a button down.

I was about to walk out when Madeline grabbed my arm.

"Yeah?" i asked

"Can i tell you something?" she asked

"Uh sure" i sat down on the bed and waited

She sat down and looked at me.

"Zach, i have this huge crush on you" she admitted

"Oh, um well-" before i could finish Madeline smashed her lips into mine. i quickly pushed her away

"Madeline, i have a girlfriend" i told her

"Oh" she got up and ran out the room. ill talk to her later, Blair's waiting.

I ran out my house and over to Blair's. i walked in her room and saw her in a robe picking out cloths. she smiled at me and took some cloths off her rack.

She threw them on the bed and walked over to me. she hugged me tightly...why, i dont know?

"Thanks for taking me out, i really need the fun" she smiled up at me. i poked her nose and lifted her up, she was so short i had to hold her. I kissed her soft lips.

She pulled away.

"Im naked" she said questionably

"I know" i chuckled

"Well you holding me, and im naked" she laughed

"Oh" i put her down and she walked in the bathroom. she came back out in a bra and underwear and threw on an over sized tee. she looked so hot! i snuck up behind her and pulled her on the bed. she giggled and flipped over so she was facing me.

"Kiss me" i smiled

She hesitated and kept trying but wouldn't kiss me.

"Why won't you kiss me?" i asked

"I dont know, i feel weird" she sighed

"Blair, im your boyfriend, we've kissed alot, you shouldn't be scared" i chuckled

She nodded and looked down.

I shook my head and kissed her. she kissed back. We kissed for a while and then Blair had to get ready so she got up.

"Zach, I love you" she said while slipping on a pair of blue high waisted shorts.

"You said it!! first!" i cheered running to her and spinning her around

"I love you too" i kissed her forehead. she giggled and put on a white crop top.

I got dressed and waited for Blair.

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Blair's POV

Zach parked the car across the street from this club. i heard the music faintly. i was alittle nervous!

"Ready, babe?" he asked me

"Yeah" i nodded opening he car door. Zach waited for me, then grabbed my hand. inside, the music was loud and there was a bunch of people dancing and drinking. they all looked happy, but i couldn't fight the fact that my mom lied.

"Lets get you a drink" Zach yelled pulling me over to the bar.

"Two Bloody Mary's" Zach yelled to the waiter.

I sat down and took a sip of my drink.

"Lets go dance" I smiled pulling Zach off his chair.

We began dancing and smiling.

Zach and I danced to like 5 songs, but i had to pee,

"Im going to the bathroom!" i yelled to Zach

He kissed my cheek and let me go.

The bathroom was bare and the music was barely audible, thank god!

I fixed my hair into a ponytail and took a towel and put cool water on it, placing the towel on my neck. i took the deodorant out my purse and put some on. once i looked clean, I walked out. I was scanning the room for Zach. I spotted him over by the bar and he was talking to a girl. she had long bleach blond hair and a skimpy red dress. i watched him and he leaned in and KISSED her! she put her drink down and kissed back. tear fell down my eyes, and i ran out the club.

'I love you'

'I love you'

'I love you'

'I love you'

Those three words ran through my head as i entered my house.

I ran upstairs and locked my bedroom door shut. i ripped off my cloths and got in the shower. i slid down and cried. i took a knife and started slicing my wrist

"You don't love me!"

"I hate you!"

"I hate you"

I cried while letting the blood drip. after like 6 cuts i stopped. i watched the blood disappear and reappear. i turned off the shower and got into baggy cloths. I put my hair in a bun and crawled in bed. I looked at the photos on my phone of me and Zach. I cried even more. He kissed another girl, she didn't make the move, he did...

I got up and laid in y bathroom and cut my hip and wrists. after a while i felt dizzy, and everything went black.