Ashamed

Prologue

                  "Dear diary,

                                 I just don't know what to do anymore. My relationship with Jason has officially hit rock bottom. I don't know if I can take much more of it. He's rude, possessive, and extremely jealous. When in school, if I'm paired up with a guy for a school project, he tells me to get a different partner or if I cant get a different one, to just not do it, which will consist of me failing. I cant take his rude and non gentlemen ways any longer. I just love him so fucking much, its hard to leave him. I know he needs me, without me, he wouldn't be getting good grades, and he definitely wouldn't stay out of trouble like he does. I am the reason he's always sane. The only guy he trusts me with is his brother Justin. Twin brother actually. Justin is not the ideal "bad boy or cutie" of the school, like Jason. Justin is known for being a bad boy in mathematics and history. He's a nerd basically. Jason treats him like a sack of dirty laundry, like he does with me. The only good thing to come out of this is my three best friends who support me and try to help me through everything. Stacy, Michelle, and Monica. Jason doesn't like them very much and when I try to kiss him in front of them or anything, he brushes me off and leaves me there with them. Jason doesn't like when we do PDA in front of people, but he used to love doing it when we first got together, and the girl he was with before he met me. Shay. That bitch still throws herself on my man. He has told her time and time again, he doesn't want her crusty, used ass. Anyways, enough talk about that irrelevant bitch, oh and did I mention I recently just moved in with Jason. He moved into his parents guest house across the cod. I'm 18 now and I feel like it was right for me to leave my parents house and with my boyfriend. And no, diary, we didn't have sex yet. We never have, i'm still a virgin, actually. We're just not ready. well, I'm not at least. Is it wrong for Jason to try to hide our relationship from his friends? Is it wrong that I have to put a scarf over my face or put on of his snapbacks over my head to hide my face when we're in public together? Is he protecting me or is he ashamed?"