Ashamed

New flames

Song for this chapter: tattooed heart by Ariana grande

Jason's POV

Hurt. I'm hurt. I haven't been to school in days because Justin knocked me over the head with a vase, and over Onika. Justin whooped my ass, but I deserved it. I deserve whatever bad shit comes my way. I really fucked it all up with her. Not only am I embarrassed to step foot in school, but I can't function without her by my side. She's the glue to my success. Without my Nicki, I can't do anything. I know what I've done is wrong, but I can live without her. She's my everything. I refuse to live without her. I'd kill for her. I'd die for that girl...

Nicki's POV

Hurt, all it feels like is my heart cracking piece by piece everytime I wake up in the morning and don't see him on the other side of the bed. It feels like a bulldozer is running over my body repeatedly, slowly so I could feel every inch of the pain. I was in love with Jason, I gave him my life. That's the scariest thing about falling for someone. You give your life to them, but they could easily drop your heart and have you left with no options or nowhere to turn. I haven't been to school in days. From what Stacy tells me, Jason hasn't either. I know I hate him right now, but I can't help but to worry about him. Stacy tells me the whole school is calling us the "trouble in paradise couple". We kinda were... No one suspected we would have problems. We portrayed to be the best couple in school, when really we were the worst. I am still kind of debating on if I should go to his house to check on him. I miss him, yes. But, I think I'm done with him. I don't think I cant take any more of his lies, cheating, and most importantly, his abuse. He mentally and physically abused me to the point where I felt as if I wasn't good enough. I felt betrayed and worthless. I'm staying at my bestfriend's Stacy house, until I get on my feet. She's the only friend of mine that stays alone. Monica and Michelle both live with their parents.

      As I was sitting in the living room contemplating whether or not I should go check on Jason, the doorbell was heard throughout the house. I got up to answer the door and was surprised at who it was. How did he know I was staying here?

"Justin?" It was a little awkward, considering the fact that our last encounter almost took a turn intimately. In other words, we kissed and that resulted in Jason almost busting his head from Justin knocking him out with a vase. He just stared at me, almost as surprised as me that he was actually here.

"H-here. These, um, these are for you." I hadn't noticed the flowers until he handed them to me.

"Aw. These are so pretty, thank you Justin." I smelled them, and looked at him with a full toothed smile. I noticed he just stared deep into my chocolate orbs.