Life is an endless cycle of rights and wrongs, where happiness is momentary yet pain and sorrow last much longer than they are worth. It is in our human nature to adopt a nihilistic view on the world, which consumes us to our very core and makes us question the value of life and meaning of our meager existence.
A friend of mine told me this, one time, during a very rough period of my life. I thought that was the right way to think. Though soon enough I realized that life is the complete opposite of that. And oh how much I had wanted for my past self to know that.
There was this one girl. A girl that mesmerized since the first time I laid my eyes upon her. With that long hair, plump lips, gorgeous eyes and smell. She smelled divine and I was longing everyday to embrace her, to feel her close to me, to cuddle. I loved her and she loved me. It seemed as if we were made for eachother, as if our souls had to be connected. Sadly enough, despite the love I felt for her, my own stupidity made me destroy everything there was or would have been.
It's a harsh lesson that one has to learn at some point, either through experience or from others. I, for one, learnt it the hard way and thus I missed an opportunity that cost me some months of deppression. But then again, even if a part of me was lost at that time, I realized that I should never let a chance slip away from me.
Keep these words in mind, future self.
- J
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Equivocality
SpiritualeIf you have the slighest chance to change something in your life you ought to grab that opportunity, even if it means dying. That's heroism.
