i am so thankful for getting so many reads!
location: starbucks
tw: none
plot: wanting him back
other info: i'm eating right now. ok lol no there's no other info to give
i haven't read over it so sorry for the mistakes.
Y O U R P O V
i sit with the usual table in the back, studying everyone around me. my eyes trails over to a couple and a smile appears on my face, seeing it be two guys. i find it adorable how the blonde guy's hand is laying over the other guy's hand, them talking like nobody is around. i remember the feeling i had when chandler did that to me, it felt like he actually cared.
"are you finished?"
i look up expecting to see one of the people working here, but my eyes meet a familiar blue colour as i look into his eyes. beside him is a tall girl with a smile on her face, her eyes way too kind. i shook my head as i look down to the coffee, starting to think about how pretty she is. is this his way to show me that he's over me?
"good."
it's funny how he has the girl talking for him, he just stands there like he isn't supposed to be there. they both sit down in front of me, both of them having the same drink. chandler and i always bought different drinks, maybe they have more in common than chandler and i had? my eyes don't leave the table, i find this situation very awkward.
"so, y/n." she knows my name? he told her about me, and she is still coming over here?
"hm?"
as she doesn't speak my eyes trails up to her, seeing her argue with chandler. they are both whispering something to each other, not understandable for me to hear. he looks quite annoyed by her, and i can't help to feel guilty. i shouldn't sit here with them, i shouldn't be close to them.
"i should go, i have stuff to do, thang-" i stop myself before continuing, knowing that that was our thing. i have always been obsessed with the walking dead, and when i got a guest role in the show i was very excited. the fact that chandler and i met there both makes me smile and frown, it depends on my mood. i stand up with my drink in my hand and start walking towards the door, but my hand gets grabbed.
"i-i want to talk to you, please?"
my eyes widen when i hear chandler's voice, and i can't help but turn around. i meet the same blue eyes, but now that i look at them closely they aren't the same. i can't help but think about the fact they they are red, and it looks like he has been crying. he couldn't be crying because of me, he was the one wanting us to end.
"why? i mean, wasn't it you who said i talked too much?"
"that's what i want to talk with you about, please? i can tell my cousin to leave, she was the one dragging me down here."
he put so much pressure on cousin i wouldn't be surprised if he lost his tongue, but i give in and nod. he walks over to the table we once sat on and starts talking with his cousin, and earns a high five before she walks away. as she walks past me she gives me a reassuring smile, and i can hear her walk our the door. i walk over to chandler and sit down in front of him, and then starting to fumble with my drink.
"it has been what, two weeks? i think so, it feels like years, though."
i nod as i study my name, seeing every letter written in a hurry. i can feel his gaze being on me, and i can't help but look up at him. he doesn't look away like he usually do, but instead he starts studying me aware that i can see him to it. his gaze meets mine, and a smile grows on his face.
"so you haven't been doing so good either?"
i shake my head no as i sigh, it's a waste of time to lie, he knows me better than i do. he nods slightly as his gaze trails down to his drink, and i start studying him closer this time. he's wearing his favorite hoodie, and may i say, my favorite hoodie. he knows how much i love it, i wore it all the time. he has cut his hair a little shorter, it's like it was before now. his eyes are darker than usual, and he has bags under his eyes.
"i did a mistake, and i was a douche. not that you didn't know that, but i just wanted to make you aware that i do know that, and that i do regret it."
"you do?"
"of course, i know we are still young but i think letting you go was and will always be my biggest mistake."
he's still looking down at the table, and i'm still studying him. he has a hard time saying what he is, like he is hurting somehow. how we broke up was stupid, all because of an argument. he stopped being with me, stopped texting like we used to and he just seemed uninterested. isn't that the usual problem in the relationships? the boy gets tired and leaves.
"i know what i said, and it was all out of anger. i didn't mean it, you know? i think you do know that, because as you said in the fight, anger takes over a persons mind completely."
"yea, i did say that."
he looks up at me again, and his eyes is glued on mine. he starts fumbling with his pockets and he sighs relieved when he pull up his phone, opening it fast. i squint my eyes in confusion, but before i can ask he places his phone in front of me. i look down at it to see his background, it still being us.
"i've never missed anyone like i have missed you."
instead of answering i continue studying the picture, it being us the day we got together. we are sitting on starbucks and we both have our drinks in our hands, and we sit beside each other. he is wearing the same hoodie as today, and even drinking the same drink. his hair is now the same since he cut it, and he is generally the same. maybe his behaviour is the same as back then?
me, on the other side, has changed a lot. i was the shy girl who couldn't say what i meant, but chandler changed that. he didn't change my personality, he just made it easier for myself to be who i am. he always saw the good in me, and that made it easier for me to be myself. i am now drinking another drink than back then, chandler was the one who got me into the one i'm drinking now.
"i-i want us to try again. i-i'm sorry, i sho-"
"don't be sorry, i want that too."
his eyes widens by my words, and by his looks it looks like he doesn't believe my words. he sits there still studying me, it's like he's waiting for me to laugh. i smile a reassuring smile, and put my hand on top of his. all i can think about is the couple earlier who sat like this, they were so happy. maybe it's our time to finally become the happy couple we once were?
"you're serious?"
"eye am."
chandler rolls his eyes by my reference, but letting out a chuckle. i smile as i him finally smiling, i have been stalking him on every social medias and i have seen how he doesn't smile anymore. he has this very personal spam account on instagram where only his closest friends can follow him, and he didn't block me so i saw everything he posted. he was always home and didn't really do anything, just like me. he walks over to my side and sit down beside me, now holding my hand.
"is it too early to kiss you?"
"hm, i don't know, maybe we should check?"
he grins my by words, now letting go of my hand. he cups my face, and i can't help but blush. he chuckles as he notices, and the colour of his cheeks turns into a light shade of pink just like mine. he glances down to my lips, and leans in slowly. he closes the gap between us, and his lips starts to move in sync with mine. i place my hand on his neck and pushes him closer to me, all i want right now is him. i have always wanted him. after a minute we both pulls away in need of air, and i can't help but smile.
"hm, who guessed? starbucks is our place."
