I'll Never Let You Go

Catching Up With Lost Time

"Morning."Dad says as Vanessa and I come down the stairs for breakfast.

"Hi dad,how are you." I say as I sit down on the table.

"Fine, um Vanessa we heard some noises from your room last night I understand that you're an adult since you're eighteen but I don't want you having sex in this house it's a very unsettling noise especially when people are trying to sleep."

I almost choke on my croissant, what did dad just say? That my older sister who snuck in a guy who has probably gotten arrested, into our house can have sex with him outside our house and I can't have sex when were exactly the same age. I need a lawyer fast.

"Okay Harold I think it's time for work okay, see you later honey." Mum smiles.

"Oh yes I'm even late okay bye my angels." Dad walks out of the door.

"Bye."We all shout after him.

"So did you get your ticket?" Mum asks while cleaning up dads place.

"Um no but I've got a ride to New York." I say putting my glass of orange juice down.

"From whom!" Vanessa shouts.

I swallow."Paul Smith."

"What,no way he just offered it to you." Vanessa says

"Um he kind of did." I exclaim.

"So no wonder you're dressed up to impress." Mum shouts from the kitchen.

"What,no I'm not." I look down at my outfit: ankle boots, keep calm slogan crop top and a black mini skirt. "Okay maybe I am." I admit.

"Any way let's get going." Mum says motion us to the door.

"Ya,"Vanessa and I get up, "we don't want to be late for Paul." She laughs.

As I walk through school I get bad eyes and a few second glances, guessing from the looks it's either because of yesterday or my outfit.

"Hey you look cute." Stacey approaches me.

"Um thanks." I look down at my outfit for a second time.

"So did you get a ticket," Stacey asks while touching my skirt, "you have to buy this for me."

"Well I got an offer for a ride."

"Buy who?" she asks.

"Paul Smith."

"What,girl don't lie to me!"

"I'm not he was in the parking lot and we talked, he offered me a ride and when I got home he sent me this," I shove my phone with the message from Paul in Stacey's hand, she scans the message with a shocked look on her face, "oh ya were going for a drink after school at Tammy's."

"Oh my God do you know what this means."

"That after all this time he still had feelings for me."

"No,well yes but," she stuffs my phone back into my hand, "this means that you finally have a second chance."

"So what do I do?"

"You flirt with him and on this trip try to have sex with him then it'sin the bag."

"But I know nothing about sex Stacey and you know that."

"Don't worry doll Paul isn't a virgin so he'll know what to do."

"But what if he doesn't even touch me." I bite my lip.

"Don't worry he will."

*Ring Ring*

Final bell, I first go to the bathroom to freshen up a bit. I smear on a layer of red lipstick and some mascara, what am I doing I'm not going for a party it's just a simple drink with a guy you've loved since 7th grade. I smear off the lipstick and wash off the mascara and put on a simple layer of lip gloss. I walk out feeling proud of myself since I hadn't come out looking like a clown. I look for Paul in the parking lot but I can't see him. My phone vibrates. At back of school car is black Porsche. From Paul.

Why at the back of the school is he that ashamed of me or maybe he wants to kidnap me. Margo relax he won't hurt you. I turn to the teachers' parking lot and I see Paul beside his car I wave and he waves back.

"You know I thought you weren't going to come." He says as I approach him.

"I thought you weren't going to show up." I laugh.

"So you ready?" he asks as he opens the car door.

"Ya."I reply.

As we pull into the parking lot of Tammy's I feel so empty inside, like I didn't eat lunch or anything. I don't know what to say do or even think I just pray I don't make a fool of my self.

"So, um how you've been," Paul asks as we sit down at the table, "you know through these past two years." He laughs as he rubs his arm and looks around.

"Um good, I also moved on a little bit as well you know," I say, "with Alex."

"Oh ya great guy, so you two broke up right."

"Yes."There's an awkward silence.

"Hey ya teens, you ready to order!" Says this fat Texan woman, I love Texans especially their accents all of this because of Hannah Montana.

"Um yes I'll have a chocolate milkshake please." I say while looking at Paul.

"Ya,make that two and one chocolate fudge cake." Says Paul with a smile.

"You got it doll." Replies the woman and then walks off.

"So."Paul and I say at the same time.

"Jinx,you totally owe me a soda." I laugh.

"Fair deal, um you first."

"Why are you going to New York anyway?"

"Well I love New York and there many things and people I love there, like my mom." He looks at me with those dark brown eyes. I'm so stupid I totally forgot that his mum lives in New York, ever since his dad and she separated.

"Oh."

"And I like to go there to clear my head and think."

"Nice." I look out the window then I feel something touch my hand.

"Um Margo, I'm really sorry." He holds my hand with such a tight grip and he looks really serious, what happened to this just being a drink.

"For what?"

"For not being a better person and just leaving you in the middle of our relationship, for not being a better friend and ruining your summer thinking about me when you had so much to accomplish."

"It's okay, really to tell the truth I like thinking about you."

"Me to."We stare at each other which feel like for ever.

"Here you are darlings." Says the waiter.

I quickly take away my hand from Paul's grasp and drink my milkshake. I think I got a five second brain freeze. I take my fork and dig into the cake chocolate fudge is my favorite. While I'm eating and drinking I notice Paul looking at me, I appreciate him being nice and all but staring at someone while they eat really freaky. When were done he pays and we get out satisfied.

"Thanks for everything Paul I had a really nice time." I say as we walk towards the car.

"Your welcome," he opens the car doors, "hey, do you want to catch a movie or something."

"Um okay, it's not like I have anything better to do." I smile.

"Great."

As we pull into his drive way and he stops the car I suddenly don't want to get out. Because this is the one place I never thought I'd comeback to.