I've decided to start adding dates onto these chapters so that I can keep better track of things and wants going on.
April 5, 2016
So, last week in school was Drug Awareness Week and I freaking hated it. They keep talking about suicide and self harm and I realized how easily triggered I am. It sucks. The urges to self harm and commit suicide have gone up a lot this week, and I was honestly kinda close to killing myself a few times. I was also close to breaking my 4 week clean streak all this week. I just want to hide from everything and never go to school again.
Anyway, I've felt terribly alone over the past week. It sucks. I've felt really sad and lonely, even though I have friends. I've slowly started to realize just how sucky life really is, or at least my life. I would literally do anything to be transported into a fanfiction.
Either way, all of these fanfictions are so not realistic. You're never gonna be waking around and bump into your favourite YouTuber or band member and start dating them, you're never gonna have peace and quiet and have someone to love you. I'll never have someone to tell me that I'm good enough and that they love me and will kiss my scars. I guess I'll just always be alone. I'm not good enough for anyone. :(
Yeah. I guess that's it. I'm probably gonna break my streak pretty soon, but no one really cares anyway. I've just stopped caring.
Probably talk to you guys later
-Lauren
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