Hey guys! It's Lauren. So this is an idea that I stole from my friend Rachel just just write about your life like Wattpad is some sort of diary type thing that that's what this is. I'm going to try to update as much as possible. So yeah...
Hey guys! So life has been interesting for the past 10 days. There's gonna be a lot to talk about in this chapter, so hold on tight.
I'll go in the order of when they happened so I'll start with the plan that I had made but recently trashed. So I was feeling incredibly shitty and my family was constantly treating me like garbage, so I made a plan. I had decided that if nothing got better, I would take my own life on either May 22, or May 29. Why those dates? You may ask. Well, as you guys probably know, my life revolves around music. So, I decided to choose May because of the song 'Hold On Till May' by Pierce the Veil and I chose a Sunday because of the Twenty One Pilots lyric 'Friday's will always be better than Sunday's cause Sunday's are my suicide days' from Migraine. I didn't want to do any dates before the 14th because that was my sisters birthday, so I came up with the 22nd and the 29th. I have now totally ditched that plan now and I'll tell you why.
So I've been brought up in a very Catholic family and as you guys know, I'm an atheist now. My family decided to take me along to a Catholic Youth Convention for the weekend and I was a little stressed about it but it wasn't all religious as I thought it would be. We had a few talks from this musician guy named Steve, and he gave us a talk on Saturday morning about how he had to play at the funeral for all of the victims of the Columbine Shooting (IDK if I spelled that right) and he told us that no parent should have to plan a funeral for their children. That really struck me. I didn't want anyone that I knew to have to go through that, so I stopped myself and I'm planning on living for a long time, and I hope whoever is reading this knows that I care about them and love them.
I'm so glad I went to Convention because I went with my youth group and there was this one kid that I had a little crush on for a while and we bonded so much over the weekend. It was crazy. We're literally the sane person and it's great. We've texted every day since Friday night and I am happy to say that we are now dating! ＼(^o^)／
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His name is Cole and he's 17 and there's a 3 year difference between us, but neither of us really care. I love talking to him and I'm the happiest I've been in such a long time. My parents are actually letting us be together, but they just want us to text and we aren't allowed to be physical at all and I'm definitely now following that because I don't care what they say and it's my relationship.
So yeah. Life's been great, except my parents have been a pain, but whatever ╮(╯▽╰)╭
