[I'd rather be black and blue than accept that you withdrew] ~ THE QUIET by Troye Sivan
Dan hated Phil. Now more than ever. Because he "saved" him. Well, news flash Phil Lester, Dan didn't want to be saved. Now, instead of being dead at the bottom of the lake, he was surrounded by nurses and doctors checking his "condition." The word almost wanted to make Dan laugh. They spoke about depression like it was a thing that could be fixed. Nothing could fix this. Each passing moment only reminded Dan that he failed at everything. He failed at making friends, being a good son, and even dying. Dan just sat on the hospital bed, feeling empty. He knew the doctors were trying to replace all the blood he had lost from the cuts, but Dan didn't care. He just stared at the wall, thinking about how he was a fail.
The doctors eventually left, and the nurses told him that his family wanted to see him. Dan just shook his head, and turned away from the door, laying down. He didn't want to see anyone. But karma must've hated him, because the door creaked open. Dan shut his eyes tightly and cursed those nurses for not allowing him some peace. The person sat down in the chair in front of Dan, and he could feel their eyes burning into his closed ones. He finally opened his eyes to see the person he despised most. Phil.
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Dear Chris,
Well, this is the end. You were the only other person who knew about my depression and yet, you left like everyone else. I can't say I'm surprised. Everyone leaves anyways. But I just wanted to write this to tell you that it's not your fault. You're my best friend, and always will be, but it's time for both of us to move on. I'm going to a better place. A place where the world won't hate me, and there is no Phil there. I'll be happier I think. At least, happier than I'll be here. I'll miss you, and I hope that you and Pj end up together. Good luck bud, and live your life to the fullest. If not for you, then for me. It's what I want for you. To have a life full of happiness, when I couldn't.
Goodbye,
Dan
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Dear Pj,
I know we weren't friends for that long, but I needed to write this. You and Chris love each other. It's time for you to make the move bud. Because he will need you now more than ever. Make sure he has a happy life, and don't beat yourself up too much. It's not your fault. There's only one person who caused this, and it's me. But take care of Chris for me. And Phil.
Good Luck,
Dan
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The End ~ Phan
FanfictionDan didn't know how he ended up like this. Everything was fine, before he came into his life. Sure, Dan was depressed, but he had his own messed up way of dealing with it. But when he came into his life and showed him all of the good things, he chan...
