My Last Wish

Still not gone

“Joe” The words came out in a whisper, but it seems that he has heard because he abruptly turned towards me a bewildered expression and then it was replaced with guiltiness.

The girl that was next to her glared at me and saw that I wasn’t didn’t had a chance. Slowly a mocking smile formed on her lips, she pulled the collar of Joe and kissed him, well more like sucking the life out of him.

I couldn’t stand it so I did the only thing I did when I was afraid. I felt numb, like something of me missed, I felt a hole in my heart, a familiar feeling came, and the sobs started I run, and run, I run pass the hospital, not stopping for a second, I just ran, I felt free for the first time, I enjoyed the feeling of the cold November wind biting the exposed flesh of face, the cold ground underneath my bare feet, the cold air passing through my thin hospital gowns.

Eventually my heart couldn’t more, so my knees hit the soft soil underneath me and the rest of my body crumbled down, I turned to my back and I felt happy, I could see the tall trees, the orange leaves falling to the floor every time the wind blow, and behind of all that I could see the pale sky. It reminds me of the color of Joe’s eyes.

A sob made it way up and I started crying again, it was a devastating, and choking feeling, I couldn’t breathe normally, my heart felt heavy and the pain was indescribable.

Why, why did I have to feel this way towards my best friend? I just don’t know what to do or think. He was like the light that guide my way through the darkest moments. Now I am lost and the darkness is consuming me and Joe will not be there to guide me. Now that I have lost him I realize how much I needed him and loved him.

I don’t know how much time I lied there, looking at the sky while the tears flowed endlessly. I was cold at the beginning but now I felt numb, I couldn’t feel any physical pain now. I felt a strange fire inside, but it wasn’t warm, I couldn’t describe it, it was like dry ice, it burned but it wasn’t warm.

My eyelids were falling down, and I felt the immense urge to sleep, to sleep forever a nice and long sleep, and my eyes closed. But a voice rang through my mind and I opened my eyes again and saw from were the voice came, from a beautiful angle… Was I death and God sent me an angel? But the angel looked worried, his eyebrows were knitted together, and concern, fear and guiltiness were clearly visible in his beautiful gray eyes. I looked at the sky and though, they are really the same color, I will remember that, his eyes, the color of the autumn sky.

“-lle! Camille!” He screamed his voice was trembling from fear, but fear of what? I looked around and saw nothing to fear about, so why? He got nearer and to my great surprise and relieve it wasn’t an angel, it was far better, it was Joe. I didn’t want to die yet without saying goodbye.

“Are you ok?” He asked while kneeling next to me.

I placed my frozen hand on his cheek, I felt him shudder under my cold touch. I ran my thumb over his creased forehead. He didn’t get away from my touch, he toke off his jacket and covered me with it; it was pretty big compared with my small frame, the warm welcoming.

“You are going to get cold you know?” I ask worried.

“What? You need it more than me.” He answered very worried.

“Why are you worried?” I ask him while he raised me in his arms, bridal style, and run towards the hospital. His expression tuned to surprise but the worry never left his features. You were lying on the frozen floor, wearing so little, looking so pale, and fragile, I though … that you were death. “He ended the sentence in a whisper. I was so scare when the hospital called and told me you where no where to be found.”

“Only that?” I asked thinking that this was what worried my precious Joe, my lovely and precious Joe. I smiled, I was so stupid before.

We eventually got to the hospital and entered the ER. Everything and everyone was moving very fast and I couldn’t care less. My eyes were only fixed on Joe. His face worried sick. I didn’t want that expression. I wanted the happy-go-lucky Joe that make the worst jokes on the word but make me laugh nevertheless

“Smile Joe” I said to him, while a stupid doctor putted a mask on my face. I removed it with my hand and smiled at him. I wasn’t scared now, I was unbelievable happy. I just don’t know why, maybe because I had found the secret to the death? I understand everything while I was freezing to death.

Joe gave me a bewildered look and tried to smile but didn’t reach his eyes.

I frowned and thought about something. ”Joe, what is invisible and smell like carrot.” I asked.

I looked at me like I was crazy but his eyes lighted a bit. “What?”

“Rabbit farts.” I answered with a smile. At long last he smiled the smile I have known for several years now.

“Some times I wonder how you come up with all this lame jokes.” He says his fading a little.” I will remember every one of them.” He said with affection.

“Thanks for smiling, I will remember that lovely expression of your when I close my eyes.” I say. He suddenly panicked; he looked around scared then looked at me again.

“Don’t leave me.” He said eyes shinning with tears.

“What man, I though that you were a man.’ I said while wishing I could lightly punch him, but I had no energy to do more than talk.

“I don’t give a damn about being a true man or not, I just don’t want you to go. He said with a tear almost falling from his eyes.

“Don’t worry; you won’t get rid of me so easily.” I said while slowly closing my eyes. “I still have a thing I haven’t done.” Then darkness consumed me.

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I am going to be hated by a certain someone called Arianna....