Trusting you//Grayson Dolan fanfic

Chapter 22

FRIDAY AFTER SCHOOL

Isabella's POV

All week Grayson has been asking me if I'm okay, and honestly I'm trying to convince myself that I am but I'm truly not, I just keep telling him that I'm fine and that he has nothing to worry about. On the plus side I have gone down a jean size, and a shirt size. It's working, honestly I look so much better without my thighs touching, I still feel fat though. Nothing I am doing is making me feel better, I wish so many things could be different. I'm just making myself look better for Grayson, if there are skinnier and prettier girls going after him, than I just have to make myself skinnier and prettier. Simple. I get home and start doing my homework because Grayson and I have a date tomorrow night, he said that he had everything under control and planned so I guess he's planning tomorrow night, I'm pretty sure that he thinks that it's just another date. I'm not sure if he remembers that it's our one month, but honestly I don't care as long as we're together. An hour into my homework and I hear a knock on the door, Riley gives me a confused look because I told her that nobody was coming over, all week she's been asking me the same things as Grayson. 

I opened the door and it was Grayson, he looked serious, 

"hey what's up Gray, why are you here?" I asked

He steps in and looks at Riley, I guess she knew something that I didn't, so she nodded her head and went upstairs. He started again,

"Isabella, we need to talk" he called me Isabella, even when we first me he has never called me that

"okay, um what's up babe?" I ask nervously

"it's not about me it's about you. You haven't been eating and you look extremely skinny, Isabella this isn't you. It really isn't, what's up babe, just tell me" he says, I could hear his voice shaking

"nothing" I say quickly while looking down

"Isabella I know that something up just tell me, I'm your boyfriend you're supposed to talk to me and come to me when you have an issue or a problem. I'm supposed to be here for you and support you when you need it, but I can't if you don't tell me anything" he says and this time with a tear running down his face

"look, do you know how hard it is seeing a bunch of prettier, skinnier and just overall better girls practically throwing themselves at you, I don't think you get it. You could be gone in a second, I need to keep up and be as good or better than them. You just don't understand, I've been through this where there are other girls around and I've become not good enough or not wanted. I have gotten my feelings all fucked up over someone for them to go around and choose someone else because they were better, it just can't happen again Grayson, it just can't. I've fallen in love before and it went to shit okay, it isn't easy dealing with everybody around, feeling like you aren't good enough, there will always be someone better out there and I'm scared that if you find them than you'll leave me." I said while plopping onto the couch and putting my head into my knees and crying.

Grayson's POV

 " ....feeling like you aren't good enough, there will always be someone better out there and I'm scared that if you find them than you'll leave me."  she said while falling into the couch and bringing her head to her knees and started crying.

I was speechless, she thought that I would leave her if I found someone better, she needs to keep up with everyone else, that I'll leave her for someone prettier or skinnier. She was so wrong, all I ever need and want is her, nobody could ever replace her. I breaks me knowing that she thinks that, all I could do was sit down next to her and pick her up, put her on my lap and just hold her while she was crying. She went through all of this because of me, that broke me even more. I just whispered in her ear while calming her down,

"Izzy, babe, don't ever, ever think for one second in your head that I'll leave you for someone else. That will never happen I promise, you're perfect just the exact way you were before. I liked you before, if I wanted one of them don't you think that I would've gone for them already. You're all I want and need in life. They are not you and that's what I don't like about them, your smile, hair, laugh literally every small detail about you is perfect, you never need to change yourself for me. You're you and that's all I want, you're my one and only, you're my ride or die. I love you so much, please never ever forget that" I cupped her face in my hands and kissed her like never before, she needed to know that I wouldn't want her to change and that I love her. I was planning on telling her tomorrow night on our anniversary but right now seemed like the perfect moment

Isabella's POV

  "......you never need to change yourself for me. You're you and that's all I want, you're my one and only, you're my ride or die. I love you so much, please never ever forget that"  Earlier this week when I was balling my eyes out I was thinking that someone should never have to change for a person if they love them. Grayson just confirmed that and he told me that he loves me

without thinking I say "I love you too Gray" and just hug him tighter

There are absolutely no words to describe how much this boy effects me and how much he means to me. I cannot even process it, he's the best person that I could ask for ever. I could never imagine myself feeling more safe than in this very moment hugging Grayson, he makes me feel something and I don't know what it is but it makes me go insane, truth is there is always going to be someone prettier, skinnier and smarter than me but Grayson makes me realise that, that doesn't matter.