My love - Everlark after Mockingjay {Completed}

Chapter Seven - Morning

The next morning
Katniss POV

I wake up fully clothed and with a sore head. I sit up slowly in my bed to see the fire lit, when did I do that? I don't even remember when I got home.

I get up from my bed and decide to go take a shower.

When I get out I don't bother getting dressed yet, I'm really hungry so I put on my dressing gown and go downstairs.

I get to the bottom of the stairs to see a shirtless blonde standing in my kitchen. What the hell? What happened last night?

"Excuse me?" I say. The blonde turns around and I see its Peeta. He's changed since I last saw him without a shirt. He's gotten more muscles but then again his build is still the same. I don't know why I didn't recognise him.

Before all this happened I could recognise Peeta in a crowd of thousands.

"Morning Katniss" he smiles cheerily as he puts some scrambled egg with bacon on a plate, "I hope your hungry, I made you some breakfast"

I only smile politely, I don't have the heart to tell him I don't eat breakfast anymore, or eat anything for that matter.

I sit down at the table and I start to feel sick at the smell of the food. Peeta places my food in front of me, gets his food and sits down opposite me.

I find myself pulling my dressing gown closer to me as I have nothing on underneath and I start to feel uncomfortable.

When I've ate half my eggs I try to start up conversation but all I'm wondering really is what is he doing here? Doesn't he have a girlfriend at home?

"So um, how's Delly?" I ask.

"She left" Peeta replies quietly.

"Oh really? I'm so sorry" I say gently. I don't question him any further. I don't know if he really loved Delly, maybe he did. I am sorry to see her go though, she is a really kind person and did bring Peeta back to me. Well, back to herself? Is that the right way to describe it?

We eat in an uncomfortable silence which I hate. I used to be able to talk to Peeta and always feel comfortable, now I just want to get out the room.

I offer to do the washing up but Peeta insists he'll do it so I take this opportunity to go upstairs and get dressed.

I decide to wear some high-waisted jeans with a turtle neck jumper since it's quite cold.

When I get downstairs Peeta is sitting on the couch and I instantly widen my eyes. That's where i told him I loved him. Where he kissed me.

Why did I tell him I loved him? It was the stupidest thing I've ever done. He had, even maybe has, I mean who knows? It could be a long distance relationship, a girlfriend. And here I come, telling him I loved him. Great timing Katniss.

I take a deep breath before sitting on the couch beside him.

"So how are you Katniss?" Peeta asks.

"Um, I'm, well-" but I trail off. I was going to say I'm okay but honestly he knows it and I know it- I'm not okay.

"Me too" he states, saving me from having to explain my feelings. He's always saving me. From myself and from other people.

I let out a small, thank you, smile.

"So have you heard from Gale?" He asks and I instantly tense up. Even though I don't want to hear from Gale, he's never tried to contact me, never tried to mend our friendship.

I shake my head silently, "Your mom?" He asks hopefully.

My mom, who is, without a doubt, the worst mom ever. I still love her though, I guess that's my problem, I care too much about everyone and everything.

My mom still is the worst mom because even though I know how she felt now, or at least I understand it more because I've come to realise I've become just like her. Shut off from the outside world. Not speaking to anyone. Not feeling anything. But I don't have children.

I don't think I could ever forgive her for leaving me and-

I stop my thoughts right there. I don't want to be upset again, I don't want to think about her again, it just leads to pain.

"No I haven't heard from her" I mumble.

Peeta reaches his hand out and takes mine. I look up into his eyes, surprised by the sudden movement. Last time I showed any affection to him, I got told he couldn't leave Delly and he left.

That's when I have to say it, I have to make sure of things before I get hurt again, before he leaves again.

"Peeta?" I question and he nods for me to continue, "Please don't do this if you're just going to leave again" I whisper, tears threatening my eyes.

"Katniss, me and Delly are done, she left me" he explains.

I look at him with disbelief before narrowing my eyes slightly, "That doesn't mean you won't leave"

Peeta moves closer to me and squeezes my hand gently before giving me a small smile, "I promise I'm not going anywhere" he says and I'm not sure why, but I believe him.