One year later
Katniss POV"I'll be back soon, I love you" Peeta says to me before giving me a quick kiss.
I just give him a smile which earns me a sad smile in return.
He then walks out the door, on his way to go work in the bakery, which got re built about 7 months ago.
Why do I just go mute when he says those words? I was the first one to say them to him when he first came back but ever since he never said them back I've been petrified to say them.
I really don't know why, it's just built into my brain, I was terrified when I first said them and then when I didn't hear them back, I just felt like I could never say them again.
Peeta did say them back though, even if it was a year later. It took us a long time to grow back together. He only just moved in with me 2 months ago, when the nightmares were getting so unbearable that I just couldn't sleep anymore.
It does annoy me that only Peeta can calm my nightmares and while I'm so happy he's actually here now, he's in no harm and he's safe with me in my bed, I just wish I could calm them myself, I guess I just hate that I can't control them.
I'm upset with myself that I can't say I love Peeta back when in all truth, I know in my heart I do.
Although another thing that's set me back is Delly coming back to town because I know if she hadn't left Peeta, he would most likely still be with her.
She already has came to see me and says she's in no way came back for Peeta, she said she just wanted to be home and that it didn't feel right for her to be anywhere else.
Peeta explained to me how he ended up with Delly. He said that she came to visit him in the Capital and offered him support when no one else would. He also said that the doctors told him he would be there much longer that he actually was.
I can't be mad at Peeta for being with Delly when he came back because if anything Peeta should be mad at me for all those years with Gale.
My best friend who I thought I was in love with but now know that I certainly wasn't. Gale hasn't came back, I heard he met a lovely women in his new home, me on the other hand has never dated to leave the district.
I feel that Panem is like a maze and once I leave my spot I'll just keep going around in circles, over and over again.
Beautiful memorials have been set up all over Panem. In each district, names are written in gold for all the heroes that sacrificed themselves for all of us to be here right now.
I've not even thought about going to see it, I feel it'll be too hard for me because I know she'll be on there. It's bad enough her playing the starring role in my nightmares, I don't think I could go see her name written on some wall.
I don't go outside often but I'm told by Peeta that many people have moved back here and they're constantly rebuilding things and building new things.
Haymitch moved away over a year ago now, my drunken old mentor who I was just starting to get along with, moved out of my life, and to the Capital of all places but I do smile at the thought of what he's doing there.
I've gotten calls from Haymitch and Effie, who are now happily together although when I say happily, I mean happy other than the times where Effie is a complete control freak but that's what we love her for.
A lot has happened in a year but I can't help think that somethings missing. I don't know what that is or if I'll ever know.
I miss my family, but I've got Peeta now and he's my family, everytime I say that makes me get a little tingle in my stomach, it's like the thought of family is related to my missing problem but I don't know what it is.
The main thing that has happened over the past year is that I've finally become happy and no one will ever take that feeling away from me again.
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My love - Everlark after Mockingjay {Completed}
FanfictionPeeta Mellark has returned to District 12 after spending a month in the capital. Katniss Everdeen has spent a month alone after returning from the Capitol. Will they grow back together? Or will Peeta's childhood best friend, Delly take Katniss' plac...