Bad Timing

Bad Timing - Chapter 7

You bang on the door aggressively. "Come on, let me in!" You yell and bang louder. Danny swings open the door and looks at you with fire in her eyes. "What the fuck do you want?" "Where's Laura?" "Why?" You roll your eyes and try to look for her past Danny. "I need to talk to her." She laughs, hollow. "You're acting like I don't know." "What?" "Laura told me she kissed you. But ya know what else she told me?" You look into Danny's eyes and lick your lips nervously as she toward you. "She told me it was the biggest fucking mistake in her entire life and she wishes it had never happened." It stings, god it fucking hurts. It feels like 1,000 tiny daggers slowly digging into your stomach and you can't stop it. You want to scream, you want to let it out but you don't. You paint on your apathetic face and look her straight in the eyes. "Where's Laura?"

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She calls you for the millionth time today. You ignore it once again as you sip your tea at LaF and Perry's apartment. "Oh come on, please just answer it, L!" "Don't encourage her! She cheated on Danny." Ouch, that hurt. "But, we all know she's in love with Carmil-" "Woah, love? No one said anything about love." LaF practically bursts into giggles. "You can't be serious." "I just, I guess- I don't know, maybe I have feelings for her or something. But it doesn't matter, I need to make things work with Danny." "Why?" Perry asks abruptly and you see a look on LaF's face which shows them falling in love just a little bit more. "Why do you have to make things work with someone you're not in love with?" "I never said th-" "YES, YOU DID, YOU LITERALLY SAID THOSE EXACT WORDS WEEKS AGO!" You plop your face into your palms and your hair falls around you like a curtain, hiding you away. You hear a sigh and you feel the weight on the couch adjust. Finally an arm wraps around you. "Look, Laura. I know you aren't going to say it. Maybe it's because you're not ready or you just can't yet. But we all know it, so you don't have to be afraid. And you don't have to stay with someone just because they love you. If you really were in love with her, you wouldn't even question it. Look at me and LaFontaine, I love them and I have never doubted it once. Just know, we're here and we love you." You wrap both of your arms tightly around Perry and you feel your eyes start to sting and your lip begin to wobble. The tears well up in your eyes and stain your cheeks. "Thank you." The door bursts open.

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"Laura, I-" You notice her sobbing into Perry's arms. "Oh shit, fuck. Are you- Are you okay, can I-" Before you know it LaF has pushed you out of the apartment and closed the door behind them. "Look, Carmilla, now really isn't a good time." "Well, when is a good time?" They shake their head and you get it. "LaF, I need to see her." "You just did." "Oh, fuck you. I need to fucking talk to her." They sigh and look up at the ceiling and back to you. "Carmilla, she doesn't want to talk to yo-" The door opens and there she is. The beautiful girl that you've been in love with since kindergarten. And she's crying and it's probably all your fault. "No, I want to talk to her." LaF and Laura switch places and Laura closes the door. She looks at you in the eyes. "Fuck." She grabs you by your shirt collar and pulls you in to kiss her. God, this is what they were talking about. In all the movies and the books. You never understood until now. Fuck, you just want to kiss her over and over. You think maybe this is the best kiss you've ever had. But you said that about the last one. You put your hands on her waist and pull her into you. You just want to bask in this moment. Please, just let it last forever. Then you feel two hands aggressively push you away. You open your eyes and see Laura, in an even worse state than before. "Fuck this, fuck you! Fuck you, Carmilla! God, fuck, FUCK!" She runs a hand through her hair and looks at you again. She pushes you against the wall and bites your bottom lip before beginning to kiss you again. She pecks along your jaw line and finally to your neck. She finds your sweet spot and sucks on it. "Fuck." You huff out. Then she pushes away again. "Fuck! No, wait! NO! Shit." She starts to run away but you grab her arm. "No! No, Laura, you don't get to just do this to me and run away!" "Do this to you?! Don't you see what this is doing to me?!" Her gaze shifts from your eyes to your lips but she abruptly rips it away from you altogether. "Laura, what do you want with me?! What do you fucking want?!" "I don't know." There are tears burning down her bright red cheeks. She can't seem to breathe normally anymore. You really want to be mad at her but you need to do this. You wrap your arms around her (much to her protest) and kiss her temple, instantly relaxing her. You rub her lower back and she melts into you. You smile, the smile reserved only for her. "Thank you." She mumbles into your shoulder. You nod and hold her tightly. "It's all going to be alright." And you almost believe it yourself.

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"Laura... I-" "Please don't." You're laying in your bed with her. (NOTHING HAPPENED YOU PERVERTS!) Her head is laying on your stomach and you're playing with her hair. You nod and sigh. She just wants to sit for a while and pretend like nothing happened. "Do you want to build a fort and watch Desperate Housewives?" She smiles and you know that you have your answer.

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"What do you think is going to happen?" You ask. Carmilla has her eyes glued to the tv. You're in a tiny fort made by 4 chairs and many many blankets. It's dark all around besides the glare of the tv. It's shining and highlighting Carmilla's face. She shovels some popcorn into her mouth and finally responds to your question. "I don't know but this Zach kid is fucking weird." "No, I-uh-I mean with us." She basically chokes on her popcorn. "Depends." She says not daring to look at you. You don't mind though, this way, you get to stare at her. "On what?" She runs a hand through her hair. "You." You get what she means. This is all on you. You could have the fiancée and the beautiful house just outside of the city. Or you could have Carmilla. Your best friend in the whole entire world who happens to also be your entire world. Maybe... Just maybe.. You do love her. BUT, maybe you love Danny. Carmilla is beautiful, she knows you inside and out, she makes you laugh and you can't help but smile when you see her. Danny is always at Kirsch's and you're always fighting and sometimes you really hate Clea. Who do you go to after a fight with Danny? Carmilla. Carmilla. Carmilla. Carmilla. Wow, Carmilla. The more you say it in your head the more it makes sense. Carmilla. Carmilla. "Cupcake?" You break free from your thoughts and you see her staring right back at you. "I love you."