Adopted By Janiel {Book 3}

F i v e

I'm legit crying. Look why Joseph just tweeted. ^^
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I shut my locker, louder then I intended, and walked over to Paul and Kyles.

Kyle isn't here, but Paul is.
"Hi Polly pocket." I greet with total fake happiness.
"Don't try and fool me with your peppy attitude. Piper told me about your meltdown"
I roll my eyes and flick his forehead.

"I didn't have a freaking meltdown, Paul."
I defensively reply.

Frick you Piper for telling this to Paul.

"Yeah okay whatever. Either way, I'm no happier about Kyle going on a date with Kessica"
He says bitterly. Thank goodness he's on our side.

"Here he comes"
Kyle says pouting behind me.
I turn around and see Kyle with a big grin on his face.

I take in a big deep breath and put a smile on.

"Hi friends!" Kyle says happily, putting in the code to his locker.

"Hi stupid. How was your date?"
Paul says fake smiling to.

"It was so amazing you guys! Oh my gosh I can't believe I had my very first date!"
He exclaims. Me and Paul look at eachother.

"Oh yeah?"
I say joining in.
"Yeah! We went to the brown bag, and she's literally so interesting, and she looked so gorgeous last night, and,"
He goes on.

I bit my inner lip. I can't believe this is actually happening. This is really happening.

He's never ever going to be as happy with me as he is with her.

It's not going to happen with me.

I thought it was gonna turn out better then this. I wish it will.

"Nor, are you okay?"
Kyle says, interrupting me from my thoughts.
"Sorry. Huh?" I reply looking at him

"You're crying" he says.

I quickly use my sleeve to whip my eyes.

"Allergies. Their just watering. I'm gonna go freshen up, see you guys later."
I say. Look at Paul and he has a sad look on his face.

Kyle nods suspiciously, and I turn and rush to the ladies room.

I swing the door open and go to the mirror.

I need to punch something.
I have to let my anger out.

I feel all this anger and energy beginning to build inside me.
Why her? Why not me? We're best friends! I knew this would happen.

Why can't something good just happen!? Why can't I have a fairytale week!?

Why can't my mom be alive?
Why can't I be skinnier!?
Why can't I be pretty like Kessica?
Why can't I be wanted like her!?

Why can't Kyle love me?

Why... Why can't he love me like I love him?

I want him to.

Because I love him. I want to be like those other girls. But I can't.

I can't be like them.

I want to loved by Kyle.

But he doesn't want to love me.

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OH SHI OH SHI.