Secretly Royalty

Five- Something So Little

I couldn't get that almost kiss with Josh out of my mind. Mainly the repercussions for if I would've kissed him.

I'd be a cheater. JC would hate me more than she already does. I'd have a bad reputation at a new school. That's only three out of the thousands of possibilities.

I never knew I could put so much thought into something so little. Maybe it's not as little as I'm making it out to be? Maybe it should be a huge deal. No. No it shouldn't.

You're gonna give yourself a panic attack, Victoria.

"Um, sir, may I use the loo," I whispered to my teacher.

"Sure. Bring the pass back." He told me before handing me a green slip of paper.

"Thank you," I whispered, rushing out of the room. I got into the bathroom and looked in the mirror.

It's only my first day, and I'm already having panic attacks in the bathroom.

Taking deep breathes, I sat down on top of one of the lids. "Breathe, Victoria, breathe." I whispered as I closed my eyes.

I could imagine my dad. He was smiling at my mum and me from across the entertainment room. Suddenly, everything turned red and everyone was rushing around, screaming. But it was silent. I could see them yelling, but I couldn't hear it.

I forced my eyes open, twisting my dad's ring that's on my finger.

It's alright. Dad's fine. Greyson's fine. Mum and I are fine. Everything is fine. Funny how something so small such as a boy can cause so much trouble.

I chucked a little as I wiped my tears away. I didn't even know they fell.

I took some more deep breathes before going back to class.

You can do this, Victoria.

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(A/N: sorry for the lack of updates! I have no excuse for why I haven't been updating. Please forgive me!)