BRIANNA JACKSON
Twist came and sat in the room with me when Trey left, I just didn't want to be alone. Nicki was keeping Wayne, Ty, and their girlfriends away from my room. Bow went with Trey, and I think Gudda went on some vacation. Rick Ross is also with Trey and Bow, to be somewhat of their bodyguard.
Nicki walked in and shut the door. She put a chair under it, and sat on the bed with me and Twist. I was laying my head on Twist's lap, while he played with my hair. Nicki laid her head on my booty :).
" Your booty is soft like a pillow Bri Bri. " Nicki said, grinning.
" Haha, thanks for telling me, I never knew that until know. " I said, laughing.
" Your welcome boo. "
That made me think of Ty, he used to call me that. I bet he calls Chyna that. I wanted to cry, but I'm going to hold it in. I can go on without him. At least I think I can. While he's trying to come in and apologize to me, I want to let him in, but I know it's all bullshit. Everything he's going to say is just a lie. Just saying that so he won't get his ass beat, so he won't seem like the bad guy. Like he's innocent.........Like he never hurt me.
This time I couldn't help it. I started crying silently, I ran into the bathroom befor anybody could see me.I locked the door and slid down the wall. I hated that I couldn't live without him. I hated that I loved him. I hated that he heard me. I hated that he couldn't feel how I feel. I hated how he can just move on and not think about me. I hated a lot of things.
" Head down
As I watch my feet take turns hitting the ground
Eyes shut
I find myself in love racing the Earth
And I'm soaked in your love
And love was right in my path, in my grasp
And me and you belong
I wanna run (run)
Smash into you
I wanna run (run)
And smash into you
Ears closed
What I hear no one else has to know
Cause' I know
That what we have is worth first place in gold
And I'm soaked in your love
And love is right in my path, in my grasp
And me and you belong, oh...
I wanna run (run)
Smash into you
I wanna run (run)
Smash into you
Smash into you
Oh......
Head down
As I watch my feet take turns hitting the ground
Eyes shut
I'm in love and I'm racing the Earth
And I'm soaked in your love
And love is right in my path, in my grasp
And me and you belong
Oh...I wanna run
Smash into you
I'm willing to run (run)
Smash into you
I'm willing to run, run, run, run, ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
I'm willing to run, run, run, run, ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
I wanna run, run
Smash into you
I'm willing to run (run)
Smash into you " I sung, with all my heart.
I made sure Ty could hear too. Trey picked the lock and walked in the bathroom. I had my head in my hands, and I was rocking back and forth. It calmed me down, cause I was bound to get pissed off in a minute. Trey sat down next to me.
" It's not f-fair Trey, I hate this....Why me? " I said, sobbing and stuttering.
" I don't know Brianna, everything happens to a person for a reason. " Trey said, hugging me.
" WHY COULDN'T NOTHING HAPPEN TO TY!? I'M THE ONE HURT AND HE'S BY THE DOOR WITH HIS FUCKING GIRLFRIEND I FOUGHT WITH FOR HIM. I PUT UP WITH HIS FANS CAUSE THEY CARE FOR HIM. I PUT UP WITH HIM, I LOVED HIM AND THIS IS HOW HE REPAY'S ME. TO SHOW ME THAT I FUCKED UP SOME GIRLS FOR HIM TO GO OUT WITH ONE OF THEM AGAIN. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO, HAVE NO FEELINGS? I ALREADY TRIED THAT. TO PRETEND HE'S NO THERE? I ALREADY DID THAT AND IT DIDNT WORK. WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO DO? KILL MYSELF?? I CAN'T DO THAT BECAUSE YOU OR ANYBODY ELSE WOULDN'T LET ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "
Trey looked at me, and like for the first time he understood everything. His eyes started tearing up, and he stood up. He grabbed y hand and pulled me up. I snatc hed my hand away and walked out of the bathroom. Ty and Wayne were in here. I just grabbed some clothes and went into the bathroom. I took a shower and changed in the bathroom. I did all of that stuff, and I was wearing this:
My eyes were still puffy so I didn't put on any make up. I walked into the room and everyone ws looking at me. I walked over to nicki and sat on her lap. She played with my fingers and laid her head on my shoulder.
" You wanna go to the mall boo boo? " She asked me, kissing my cheek.
" Ty used to call me that. " I whispered, and a tear rolled down my cheek.
" I'm sorry. "
" It's ok, come on I wanna go, the doctor said I could leave today anyways. Can I get my stuff ready and put it in your car please? " I said, sounding like a baby.
" Yeah. "
I put all of my stuff in a bag, there wasn't a lot. Then a ude with at least 10 balloons came in and gave them to me. There was a box full of white hershey chocolate bars and reeses for days. There was a note and I read it.
I know I put you through a lot of pain, I didn't realize how much it was until I heard you tell your brother. I am sorry, and I know that just a not telling you this instead of me isn't going to help. I just want you know that I'm sorry, and if I could change anything to stop you from hurting I would. I can't promise you that I will change, but I can do better if you give me the chance.
I still love you,........and always will
-Michael Stevensonღ
I looked, and saw Ty from the window. I walkd out the door, and ran outside to the parking lot, where he was. I saw him and jumped on him. I hugged him with all my might, I never wanted to let go.
" I love you too Michael. " I said, pecking his lips.
" Your going to give me another chance? " He asked, giving me kisses that I missed.
" Yes. "
He spun me around and gave me a long kiss. I really missed those. We walked back in the hospital hand in hand. When we got to the room, everybody was eating my candy, even Trey.
" That's fucked up, how y'all gone eat MY, not yours but mine, candy. " I said, mad as fuck.
They all ran into the bathroom, locking it too. I should slap the mess out of them .
" I'll buy you some more. " Michael said, I like calling him that.
" You don't have too. "
" I want too. "
" Thank you. "
" Your welcome boo. "
