-Vics POV-
As I began to wake up, my eyes twitched and my body tensed up realizing there were arms were wrapped around me. I looked up and saw Kellin, sleeping. Last night flashed through my mind and I couldn't help, but smile. He cares, I can't lose him. I just can't. I have to pee, but I don't want to move. I slowly ease out of his arms and as I'm moving one of his arms. One of his sleeves comes up a little. Shock filled my eyes, along with some tears. I saw some cuts. Fresh ones, deep. I got up and scurried to the bathroom and shut the door. I fell to the ground and cried quietly to myself.. Why he is so sweet... & nice... Why would he do this to himself.. Why didn't he tell me... He knows about me... He was there for me, I want to be there for him.. How can I? I barely can be there for myself. I reached for the cabinet looking for a razor, when there was a knock on the door. I quickly tried to stop the flowing tears, but they wouldn't. "Vic, are you alright?" Kellin asked with fear in his voice. "Kells I'm fine, go b-back to my room" I choked out, right as I was about to put the blade to my wrist, the door flung open. "Vic don't!" Kellin screamed. Scaring me, so I dropped the blade. He quickly picked it up and put it in his pocket. 'Why just leave me be!" I yelled. "I'm not going to let you hurt yourself Vic!" He screamed with pain in his voice. " Oh, so you can hurt yourself, but I can't hurt myself?!?!" I spat out. His face instantly dropped and I immediatly spoke up "Kells, I didn't mean to-" He cut me off. "Sorry I tried Vic, I'm just gonna leave." He said as he closed the door and I heard his footsteps down the stairs & the front door slam. Fuck. What am I gonna do now...
-Kellins Pov-
I can't believe he just said that to me... Was all I could think. How did he even find out? Why was he about to cut? Lots of questions were running through my mind. As I quickly ran through the streets, trying to find my way home. Finally, I recognized the familiar street and started heading towards the front door. Once I got inside, I took out my phone to check the time, 4:27pm. & I had 16 missed calls from Vic and 23 texts. Some of them said;
Vic; Kells, I'm sorry please call me.
Vic; Kells, I care I really do I'm sorry.
Vic; Please don't do anything stupid, I was being stupid.
I stopped after that.. and I turned towards the noises I heard from the living room. There on the couch sat the man that I have only known for a short few weeks and I already despised him. I turned and headed for the stairs. "glad you're finally home, Kellin." Rick said with a sickening chuckle. I felt tears fill my eyes. I was slowing walking up the stairs when suddenly I felt arms grab me from behind. I let out a loud shriek. I felt a sudden un[pleasent force to the side of my face. It took me a moment to realize he had punched me in the face. Next thing I know I'm sitting on the couch beside him. "Now Kells, seeing as your mommy will be home soon. I won't expect much from you." When he said that i felt a chill down my spine. "Wh-what do y-you m-mean..?" I managed to stutter out. He then began slowly unzipping his pants and pulled his member out. He then grabbed me by my hair and shoved himself inside my mouth. I tried to resist, but it was getting hard to breath. I decided to bite him. He threw me off him and I used that time to run to my bedroom. Once I had gotten to my bedroom, the door opened back up and I was pushed to the ground. Rick jumped on me and began punching me repeatedly. After he was done and I had a fair share of bruises and cuts all over my face along with blood he stood up over me. He then kicked me in the ribs a few times causing me to yelp. Before leaving my room he turned towards me and let out a small laugh and said, " Kellin be a man, oh and I don't think I need to tell you not to tell your mom. Cause there will be consequences. Not just for you either." I pulled myself up onto my bed and just cried and cried. I feel so alone. I have no one. The first person I've felt like cared just insulted me about cutting myself. No one cares, I know what I have to do. I slowly and carfully got up, it hurt so bad to even move. I walked towards the bathroom and shut and locked it behind me. I opened the cabinet and found a bottle of my mom's percocet's. There were at least a hundred in there. I planned to take most of those. I slowly reached for the bottle, I unscrewed the lid and dumped a fews into my hand, admiring the plain beauty of the little white pills. I put them back into the bottle, rached back into the cabinet and pulled out a razor. 'You need to feel pain, not just take the easy way out' the voices told me. I pulled the blade across my skin until my whole left arm was red. All I could see was red. I then turned and grabbed the pills. I dumped around 12 in my hand and swallowed them without another thought about it. I knew that wouldn't be enough to kill me so I didn't stop there. I took about 20 more. I began to get dizzy, and sick to my stomach so I slowly laid down on the cold bathroom floor. I could feel the heaviness of my body, I knew this feeling. It was the feeling of dying, and it felt great. I managed a smile, before my eyes started to shutter, then everything went black..
-Vic's POV-
What had I just done. I always fuck things up. Kellin was important... What the hell am I saying, he is important. I need to find him and apologize for being such a dick. I crept out of my room and down the stairs quietly to get passed mikes room. I then grabbed his car keys off the counter and hurried out the door. I quickly started the engine & sped off not caring if mike heard me anymore. This was important. I figure I'll check his house first... He never has really talked about home.... Now to think about it, he never has & he's never even invited me over.. Other than that one time, but he changed his mind the day of... That day he seemed really off.. I pulled across the street of the house and walked up to the door. Should I knock or just go in? Well there's 2 cars here. Kellin said his mom worked till 7pm so I'm guessing its his stepdads car. I knocked a few times, and after a few moments. The door flew open, there stood a tall man in his late 30s with short brown hair and emotionless black eyes.. "Uhh... Is Kellin here?" I asked. "I don't know if he's really up to talking at the moment.." The man said with a smirk on his face. "Please sir, it's important." His face expression told me he was thinking. About what, how much thinking do you have to do for me to go and talk to Kellin like wtf. Before I knew it he opened the door more and motioned for me to come in. As I walked in, the strange man just plopped on the couch, how I presume he was before I 'interrupted' him.. Whatever, I walked up the stairs in search of kellins room. I got to the second doorway, which the door was open. There were band posters all over the walls, and it was oddly quiet. Where was Kellin? By the way his stepdad was acting, he is home. I hear a 'thump' come from down the hall. I quickly look in the hall, nothing. I open the door closest to where I heard the sound. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. There laid kellins body looking lifeless as ever. Pills scattered everywhere. Blood all over. A small razor lying next to him, and his arms sliced all over.. "Oh my god, kells.. Why?" I choked out and I could feel the tears streaming down my face. I also noticed a bruise on his face.. What... That's not important right now vic! I pulled out my phone calling 911 as I checked for a sign of a pulse. It wasn't strong, but there was one... "911 what is your emergency?" The operator asked. "Hello, my friend took a lot of... Uh.." I picked up the bottle of pills, and read what they were, "Percocet and also cut his arms deeply, I need a ambulance NOW!" I practically screamed out. Then I hung up. That's when I heard footsteps come up behind me... " what's going on up he-" he gasped at the sight of kellins body. He then looked down at me and I just cried even more. "An ambulance is on its w-way.." I cried out. Next thing I heard sirens getting closer and closer. Paramedics rushed in and put Kellins body on a stretcher. They carried him out and told me I could ride with. I quickly jumped in as the ambulance sped off towards the hospital. After about a 5 minute drive we arrived and they pulled kellin out and took him into the emergency room. They told me I had to wait in the waiting room... I sat in the chair with my head in my hands, thinking about everything going on... This is all my fault. I was practically balling my eyes out. I did this to Kellin. That should be me right now. Not him, I deserve to die... Fuck.... "Kellin Quinn?" I stood up quickly to see what the nurse had to say. "Yes?" I asked in a almost annoyed tone. "well it seems as though he has 2 broken ribs, lost an excessive amount of blood, and we were able to pump his stomach just in time. He's very lucky to be alive. He got her just in time. " kellins okay. He's alive. I smiled, and asked the nurse, "when can I see him?" " right now if you'd like.. He's not awake, but should be shortly. Room 234b." She said with a small smile. I walked through the hallways looking for the room and I finally found it.. I looked in and saw him... It broke my heart to see him like this. His arms were all bandaged up as was his stomach. I sat in a chair beside him grabbing his hand. "Why kells?" I said softly. Barely audible. "This is all my fault, I'm terrible." I was crying. "If you were to die, I would die too." I looked down in my lap trying to stop the tears, but they wouldn't. "Why.." I heard a soft raspy voice say. I quickly looked up and saw kellins eyes open. He then looked at me... "Kellin! Your awake!" I said in a happy voice. "That's just great vic, just great..." Was all he had to say. " kells.. Why do you say that?" I said in shock... I mean I knew he wanted to die, but I mean.. I love him. "Why the fuck do you think? I'm a worthless piece of shit, with nothing to live for. I want the fuck out of this pathetic life. I already should be." He spat out. Right there. That moment. My heart broke. Those words.. Cut like razors. Hearing him speak like that, a warm tear rolled down my cheek..
*DISCONTINUE- Once again I don't think anyone reads this, but if you want me to continue this story please comment. If I don't get any comments then I'm just gonna discontinue this story. Thank you if you are reading this!"
