-Kellins POV-
I could see the hurt in his eyes after I said that. I was just being honest though... I wanted out and it wasn't my fault. By now vic was in tears.. The worst part is I felt nothing. Just numbness. I mean I know I should feel bad for leaving vic like that or.. I guess more so trying to leave him... I frowned at the thought that I failed at my attempt. "I can't do anything right.." I muttered. "I can't even kill myself.. Like what in the actual fuck!" I half yelled, but it came out in a raspy whisper. "Kells, please.. Stop talking like that..." Vic said holding his head in his hands. "Why not no one cares?" I spat out. "Actually kellin I do! That's why I just saved your fucking life because I don't want to go on without you. Why is it so hard for you to see I care about you, I.. I love you kells.." He said slowly looking up and our eyes met. An instant wave of guilt washed over me for making him feel like this.. and butterflies because he just said he loved me.. oh my god. "I'm sorry, vic... I just feel like I have nothing to live for.." I said just above a whisper. "Kells, I know what you mean I felt like there was nothing to live for... I was... Planning to end it all, but then I met you. Your my purpose to stay here." He said with a few tears rolling down his perfect tan cheeks. My eyes were stinging with tears, I couldn't hold them any longer. I let them freely fall from my big blue and green eyes. Next thing I know there are two strong, but warm arms wrapped around my body. Vic was holding me like I was so fragile. I felt so safe in his arms. Even from the negative thoughts in my head. "Kellin, I care about you... Please promise me you won't ever do anything like this ever again?" He said as he pulled away from me and I looked up into his pleading beautiful brown eyes. "I can try... For y-you vic.." I responded with fresh tears shedding. He gave me a sympathetic nod. Then pulled me back into his embrace. "The nurses said you could go home. Do you want too? He asked still holding me in his arms. I gave him a slight nod. & he got up kissed my forehead and walked out to fill out what I presumed to be my release forms. A nurse came in and unhooked all my wires and handed me a pair of sweats and a t shirt. I instantly could tell they were Vic's. He must have brought them for me, he was to sweet to me. What i did to deserve someone like him in my terrible life, I have no idea. I went to the bathroom and quickly slipped on the comfy clothes & when I came out vic was sitting there with his head in his hands, he wasn't facing me..I slowly walked forward and put my hand on his shoulder which startled him. "Oh. Hey" he murmured. Something was wrong. "What's wrong vic?" I asked worried. "Oh it's nothing Kells, lets go." He said with small smile. Fake smile. I brushed it off. He'll tell me sooner or later. I knew I needed to tell him some stuff. "Vic there's something, I need to tell you.." I mumbled. He gave me a look to continue. "I don't really know how to say this, but I feel like you should know and I care about you alot. No one else knows, so you can't tell anyone, I am just scared your gonna leave me just like everyo-" he cut me off. " stop rambling, just tell me Kells, I won't judge you." I trust him. I think. No I do. " I was r-raped" I choked out still in shock I had the guts to tell him. His face immediatly filled with shock, but then turned to worry and sadness. "What.. Kells? Wha-.. Who? When?... Oh my gosh.." he breathed heavily. "Vic, it's fine... I just felt the need to tell you.. I don't really wanna talk about it.. Just please don't leave me.. I really could use the company.." I said suprisingly calm. It was true I didn't want to talk about it, it makes me feel gross and I don't even know why I told him. He was just sitting there frozen with his head in his hands not moving. What had I done? "I'm not gonna leave don't worry.. We can talk when your ready.. I'm so sorry that had to happend to such a beautiful person like yourself though Kells..." He trailed off. That warmed my heart. I couldn't help but give him a small smile, but a real one. He returned it. God I love his perfect smile, his perfect teeth, kissable lips. Everything about Victor Fuentes was perfect and he was mine.
*I know it's short, but I've decided to continue thank you to the people that commented. At least it's an update. Shoutout to the first people to comment @BrittanyBenoit & PIERCETHESARAH_3 . Thanks so much everyone. If you have any specific ideas you want in the story then let me know. I'll update asap. Bye for now :)*
