Alpha's Silver mate_COMPLETED

Chapitre 26

Silver's POV:

My head was poundering violently since this morning. I shouldn't have deprived myself of blood. Idiot. It's just lately I feel like something's off with me. To begin with I feel!

Feelings are not a normal thing for a pureblood vampire. We are damned, for God's sake! We don't have freaking feelings.

But me? I was excited when I was near Dan. Hurt when Riley wouldn't look at me. Happy when he gave me a gift. Content when he was holding my hand. Sad when I had to leave Dan's house, but then excited again when Riley invited me to a coffee shop.

So much new emotions I don't know what to do with it anymore. I want to be back to my old self: only think about me and my hunger. But since we moved in this town I restrain myself from drinking blood. I don't want to hurt someone.

What the hell's wrong with me? Since when do I care about hurting someone?! As long as I remember, I used to have fun slashing people.

God, my head spins around again. I burry my face in my hands when a light knock draws me off my self pity.

I look at the door where Riley stands, obviously uncomfortable, with a grim smile on his already thin lips. Strangly I can't help my heart from beating faster.

Yes, I have a heart. I was born a vampire, not turned into one.

Him there makes me uncredebly glad but I try to tame that foreign feeling so I only give away a small smile. It seems to put him more at ease somehow since he makes his way over me and sits down on the chair. Damn I didn't think about his scent.

I stiffen as fast as his orange mixed with chocolate scent hits my nose and I lose my smile. I swallow painfully and turn away. Don't think about his blood, don't think about his taste.

-Silver.. He calls softly making my heart pump sharply. Are you that mad at me you can't even face me? Riley adds with a broken voice. Why would I be mad? I don't understand what's the matter with him but I can't face him yet. I didn't eat for almost two weeks now. My self control is about to wear off. Listen, what that girl said is all a lie! Well almost all of it... I mean... God it's so embarassing. He sighs and I hear him shift in his chair. I still won't look at him trying to tame my instincts. If only I knew I would meet you, I would have never even think about an other girl. Hell, I would have never gone to any of this parties. But I swear nothing really happened between me and that Gemma. He whispers with a plead clear in his words. Who's Gemma though? And why would I care what they have done together? He could have screwed the whole school I wouldn't care... I guess?

Why do I not like the sound of him with another girl?

I screwed so much more and yet him doing the same sends a bitter feeling in my chest...

-Silver look at me. You're breaking my heart. He sighs so I oblige. I don't like him being sad. Again, why?

-Who's Gemma? I spat. I don't know who's he talking about, but I already hate her. For all I know I ran away before lunch because all the agitation in the hall made people's blood excited so I could smell it even better. Plus I am beyond hungry. And above all there was Daniel looking at me in the middle of the crowd with pure lust in his eyes, hugging some unknown girl. If I didn't run he would have already been lying dead on the floor. I shook my head to clear my thoughts. I don't care about Daniel and his minty scent...

-Nevermind. I say not wanting to hear about him and someone else.

-No, it's ok. You have the right to know what happened. He looks me in the eyes with sad expression. I'd rather tell you myself before someone else does.