I'd Wrote You Some Letters But I Don't Wanna Send Them To You

I Hate My Life

Frank,

I feel well when I destroy myself.
I will end my life without you 'cause this hurts more than chemo.
The end is near for me.
You don't know why I wanna kill myself.
You made me cry.
You made me laugh.
You broke my heart.
I've tried to let you know how much you mean to me.
I've changed for you.
Sometimes you act like you're the only person in the world.
You were, and you are the best thing in my fucking life.
You were my saviour, but now you are my destroyer.
You've destroyed me inside.
You're like an obsession for me.
Now I'm crying thinking of you.
A song says "True friends stab you in the front" and you did.
Can you hear the silence around me, around you?
Can you hear the beatings of my heart? Those are the last ones.
I am not afraid to die. I wanna die.
This is the only way to stop suffering, but I want to suffer.
I'm afraid of everything.
I love the idea of leaving everything and die, maybe in your arms, when you're crying, crying for me, for all you've done and never done to me.
I'm a nightmare.
All you can feel is hate.
I can't feel anything, but it's okay.
I'm not okay, you know that, but I don't care!
You're my everything, I'm your nothing...
So long and goodnight... I'm dead!

Gee