Degrees of Separation

Hers: [1] Denial

We broke up.

He broke up with me.

He called me last night to tell me that we're over. His reason? He doesn't love me anymore. I call bullshit on that.

It's funny how he threw away everything that we had just because he fell out of love. Why didn't he try harder? Or did he even try?

He made a promise to me. And I'm going to hold onto that.

"What are you going to do if we ever broke up?" I asked as I stared at the stars above.

At the corner of my eye, I saw the lines of his forehead creased. He leaned closer to me putting his chin on top of my head.

"Nothing," he answered. He reached for my hand and intertwined our fingers, "Because it will never happen," he added.

I can't help but smile. He really knew the perfect words to say.

I inched myself from him, "What if, Clyde?" I argued.

"I won't let it happen, Dani. Always remember that. Besides, ayaw mo nang may ibang humahawak sa kamay mo. Sinong ka-holding hands mo? Maarte ka pa naman," he dramatically answered.

I just rolled my eyes, "Ang epal mo talaga kahit kailan."

"Yet you still love me," he teased.

I laughed at that. I couldn't argue because it was true. Kahit na sobrang epal na niya talaga madalas.

"And who else will kiss you like this?" He stopped and pecked a kiss on my lips. "Kapag nag-break tayo."

"Don't be too full of yourself. Ang dami-dami d'yang pwedeng halikan," I answered and laughed when he let go of my hand and sat up.

"Bakit ba tayo napunta sa usapan na 'yan? Tama na nga. Iinisin lang dapat kita pero akong nagseselos."

I pinched his nose and he made a face at me. He then lie down beside me again, placing back his chin just above my head and his hands on my waist.

The both of us were silent as we looked at the skies above. It was a comfortable silence. It's always like this with him. I really do hope that this would never end.

I was leaning onto him so I could hear his heartbeat. I felt him kissing my side temples.

"I love you, Dani."

I looked up to him and saw him staring at me. He softly brushed off the hair that was covering my face, and caressed my cheek.

"Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko kapag nawala ka."

I held his hand, "It will never happen, remember? I'll always be here no matter what happen."

He smiled at that before kissing me. It was a soft and slow kiss, like he was afraid that I'd break. I kissed him back and he tugged on my lips. His hands from my waist went up and stopped just bellow my brassier.

"I love you, Dani. You're my moon, my stars and whatever celestial bodies out there. I'm sorry I suck at science," I laughed at that.

He gave me another kiss, "You're my whole universe."

"I love you too, Clyde."

I can't. I can't lose him.

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