Degrees of Separation

His: [5] Denial

As the door of this church opened, I saw her standing, wearing her wedding dress, holding a bouquet of flowers. Although, I couldn't see her face because of the veil, I know she's smiling. I know she's happy.

As she slowly walked down the aisle, my heart beats frantically. I doubt if these people inside the church can hear it. It's deafening.

I look around the whole room. I can even see old faces. Our friends in college and some of her relatives. Smiles are plastered on their faces. Dani's mom was crying and so her dad as he walked her to the altar.

Time flies so fast.

Our first meeting was still fresh in my mind. How she knocked my senses out.

"I think you're mistaken, Miss." I said, and her forehead creased.

She eyed me, and studied my face more and replied, "No. I'm sure you're that guy earlier."

"Anong sinasabi niya, Clyde?" I look at Bianca and shook my head.

"I don't know. I think she's crazy." I replied.

The girl puffed her cheek and laughed. Crazy.

"Miss, maniwala ka saakin. 'Yang lalaking kasama mo ngayon, manloloko 'yan. Kita mo 'yang pangit na mukhang 'yan? Nakita ko 'yan kanina sa coffee shop na may kalandiang iba. May pa babe babe pa nga 'yan, eh!" she exclaimed and looked at me again, "And you, don't deny it, it was you. Gusto mo tawagan ko pa 'yung kasama mo kanina?!"

I laughed. Okay, maybe she's not mistaken. I was really at the coffee shop earlier and I was with Lea – no I think it's Lena, or maybe Lily, either of the three.

I wasn't afraid because I knew I cleared myself to every girl I go out with that I only date with no strings attached.

She started calling someone on her phone. Her eyes are still on me, watching me closely. This scene is getting bigger.

"Lyca!" she exclaimed.

So, it was Lyca. Not Lea or Lena or Lily.

"I saw your asshole boyfriend with a girl. She's cheating on you." She informed the other line. "Maniwala ka!" she then looked at me, "Hoy ikaw, anong pangalan mo?" she asked me.

"Clyde." I replied.

"Narinig mo?" she told the other line.

She continued blabbering and throwing daggers at me. Her forehead creased again when the call ended.

I equaled her look.

"Hoy mister, makinig kang mabuti kasi hindi ko na 'to uulitin. Sa oras na makita ulit kitang nanloloko ng babae, hindi mo na maipapasa ang pangit mong genes." She said, still looking at me intently.

I smiled, "Want to be my girlfriend?" I asked.

And the next thing happened was like a blur. Her fist met my face.

Damn, it fucking hurts, big time!

Before I regained my senses she spoke again, "Asshole."

And then she left.

She walked closer to me but her full attention was on her groom. Apollo.

I watched her as Apollo held her hand and wiped her tears.

I watched her exchanged vows with someone else.

I watched her got married with someone else.

Right at this moment, I watched my world fall apart.

And it fucking hurt. So much.

And I still can't believe that this is happening.

I still don't know how to let her go.

Because I still love her. So much.

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