Thanks To You

I Always Will

October 4th, 2016

Do you expect me to just move on

when I've been with you for so long?

After everything we've been through

me and you no longer exist?

You have no clue how much pain you're putting me through

I'm blinded by so much of it I can't even see what to do.

You ruined me...you left me here after we promised to always be there for each other.

I'm dying right now and you don't even notice because you're to busy moving on.

I wish I could forget everything we've done together

forget all the "I Love You's"

all the times I started crying and you would come wrap your arms around me and say

"Everything will be okay..." 

I wish I could forget that feeling that I got every time I looked at you

that feeling that people always talk about in movies and you never think it's real until

you experience it yourself.

I loved you and, I hate myself for it but, I know I still do.

But the thing is...I don't want to.

I want to be over you like how you're over me

I want to be able to find someone new...

but I'm not even gonna try

because it'll all be a waste time

I could never replace you.

And, if I'm truly honest with myself, if you were to come back

I would let you back in,

rock my world, then dump me all over again

As long as I have you, that's all that matters,

I love you

and no matter what you do to me,

no matter how many times you leave,

I always will.

-R