Thanks To You

I Was Wrong

Please take note that this one is kind of scratchy...I was really emotional while writing this and, I don't know..i guess I didn't want to go back and make it good because the way I had it already said how I felt and, to me, that's all that matters in a poem.

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December 17th, 2016

I remember how I thought we were

perfect, inseparable, forever.

I remember thinking

"We'll always be together"

But, when you left, it hit me.

You never really cared about my feelings

you never really, truly, loved me.

I can't believe I actually thought we would be forever.

I thought that you would do what you promised you would do

and always be there,

I thought you would never leave me for someone else

but I guess they made you happier than  I did.

I guess I wasn't good enough.

When you left,

I went from staying up all night thinking about how perfect we are

to staying up all night wondering what I did and where it all went wrong.

From calling you when ever I needed someone

to sitting alone, in my room, crying.

I needed you, but you left me here to rot

and I wish I could hate you for that

I wish I could stop loving you

but, for some stupid reason, no matter how hard I try...

it never works.

No matter how much I want to forget about you, all the memories,
I can't.

I wanna know how you could just walk away

Just pretend like nothing ever happened and move on with your life.

I thought you loved me as much as I loved you.

I thought you actually cared

Thought you would never leave.

I was wrong though

I was wrong about everything.

But do I regret it?

No, but only because of how much fun and security there was

I do wish I could've never met you ...

I wouldn't be feeling this right now.

But that's the thing about life

there's no going back.

No rewind button.

And that's the thing about love

sometimes you can't control who you love.

You love them just because.

-R