Voyage on a paper boat

Nick Wallenda....Ms.X.....

    I told to mom at night " mom, wake me up at morning 4:45 Am sharp, Its very important mom, I need to watch TV"(" Mom gave a weird look, I guess she thought I became mad,but I know what I am gonna do, the worst fear I got is, they may again arrange one more round table conference because of this")
    Mrng I woke up at 4:30 itself, I came to know "if u are truly passionate about something, no matter how, when,why U will definitely achieve it"
    I should figure out a way to control volume so that no one wakes up and also I should be able to hear it("Dude, an idea how about recording the entire program in ur mobile by keeping it near TV, so that we can hear whenever we require")
     I kept minimal volume and started recording. First went some interview with Nick Wallenda. Then he started Wire walking across The Grand Canyon Of Colorodo, without any safety, not even a parachute also. I was thinking " Is he mad or something why is he risking his life for this".
    The program came to an end I quickly took my mobile its already 6:30 AM, I was searching for my headset, then ran to terrace for listening the show, my neighbors are giving a wierd look at my hurry.
    I listened to the entire speech. I liked three questions and his answers.
Question 1:
  Dont you fear walking on such height without any safety?
   People who are passionate about achieving things forgets the fear or danger involved in it, I may die doing this act but it never happens because I figured out my possibilities to loose and I am also prepared for that. I am ruling myself, I am gonna complete this feet and will come back with the smile.

Question 2:
  What about your preparations for this act?
    Its my dream walking on this wire.Wire walking is my life, I am preparing for this since I came to know about this beautiful canyon, There is some relation between us which cant be broken ever.

Question 3:(The walk on wire was of completed when this question was asked)
During your walk, you are about to fall down somewhere in middle how u felt at that time, how you controlled your emotions?
    First I got a little fear when heavy wind came, But I spoke to myself" Nick you are prepared for the worse than this you have experienced 90 miles per hour wind but this is just 60 miles per hour only, the only fear you have now is death, break the fear of death, stand up and walk for your aim"
    
     I sat there for an hour concluded with only one point

           SELF MOTIVATION.....
    If u are motivated by someone or some book or someother sort, one thing happens. It stays temporarily but if its self motivated and if u are passionate any fear, nor even death can stop you from achieving it.
    With that boost up, I started to my college. On my way to college in train one more miracle happened.....
   One girl in her mid teens was of sitting next to me, the journey was pretty boring to me since no friends.
The girl is looking at me continuously, It was a bit difficult for me("Then only I understood how difficult for a girl when a boy is seeing at her")
unable to control I asked "Hi, do u need anything from me"
  She said "Whats your name, which year of degree are u in by the way?"
I said "My name Abhi, Fourth year of degree"
  She said " So nice to hear, I know how the college life will be, friends that can do whatever for us, enjoyment, one day before exam studies, and placements....("She said the last word with great difficultly, I saw fear in her eyes, something inside drove me to ask what happened")
    I asked her atlast "whats with placements, what happened".
  She said " I passed out this year only from college, I too enjoyed the college life till the core, when entered to placements, I am actually best in my group everyone expected I will clear it with ease, but there is one thing, one line called fear in me that stopped it from achieving, I had fear thats why I thought of everytime "If I wont clear this whats next", I started making backup plans all the time, I never gave suggestion to anyone but I want to give to you"
   She said in a firm tone " Abhi, Listen never think u will fail, fight till you breath your last breath, never let it go till the end, first live the present, win it, if you fail then u can think of future, never get fear of failure, respect fear, but dont let it defeat you."
    She said and went off, I forgot to ask her name also. I decide to call her Ms. X. I remembered one quote "Dont read success stories you will only get inspired, Read failure stories, You will come to know how u can be failed..."
     I got one single point in my mind,
            Never get fear of failure
    I decided I am not gonna think about everything apart from my success.....
   "Thank you Nick Wallenda and Ms. X for your help" while I am saying this my stop came....